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Apr. 11th, 2017 04:27 pm
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Now I owe you a real entry. Nobody here knows me, so here goes:

My name is Tennille. I'm female. I was born in 1975 in Onaway, MI. I have one brother, Travis, but he wasn't born until I was 10-years-old. My parents are still together, but really shouldn't be because all they do is fight because of my dad's severe depression. When I was growing up we lived in Millersburg, Rogers City, Onaway and Hawks. Now my parents live in Posen.

I had 3 kids, but due to being such a loser when I was young and not able to support them financially, I had to give them up for adoption. My twins, Tony and Cathy, are now grown adults and my youngest, Felicity, is kept away from me by my ex-mother-in-law. Thankfully my tubes are tied and I will never pregnant again.

I was married twice and both times were failures. The first one, Chris, was the worst. Not only was he physically abusive to my twins and me, he also turned out to be a gay child molester that my dad and I had to have put away in prison! He spent 10 years in there and was released probably about 3 years ago now. He lives down in Saginaw and hasn't been stupid enough to come up here.

The second time, Marty, sucked, too. Turns out he was mentally retarded and I didn't know it because it was very mild. He just kept saying he had trouble reading, but as time went on I realized he had some pretty bad mental issues. He would start fights just to start fights, keep pushing until I snapped, then go on Faceboook and cry, "husband abuse." He told his family I cheated on him, which I didn't, so they called me a whore for years and years. When I got pregnant with Felicity he called his mother and said, "Tennille's pregnant," and she said, "By who?" That bullshit was caused by him and all his lies, which he never admitted to to fix the problem. Then his mother used my having to give up my twins for adoption against me and was able to get CPS and the courts on her side. She took Felicity one day and said she was going to watch her for a couple days, that she wanted to spend time with her. She was lying. She took us to court and eventually had our parental rights taken away on ridiculous child abuse allegations, like saying I never fed her (she would have been dead!). They were all lies and she knew it, but her lawyer and the judge were her personal friends, so we had no chance in hell. Even though the adoption with Tony and Cathy was open and my family and I were able to see them growing up, this woman has made sure none of us can see Felicity. Felicity is 13 now and we haven't seen her since she was 2! We hope after she turns 18 she will want to see us all. Anyway, back to Marty: one day in August 2008 he said, "I'm going to Grand Rapids to live with my video game buddies," and that's exactly what he did. (He is 100% obsessed with nothing but video games in life.) I haven't seen him since and never will again. I never even missed him. A year later I was able to afford a divorce (he refused to do it) and that was that.

Shortly after Marty left I ended up with a guy named John who ended up being mentally abusive, a pathological liar and a HUGE cheater. I had moved in with him, so I had nowhere to go. I spent the next 6 years catching him cheating, having him beg me not to leave, promising not to do it again, just to cheat again. Again and again, around and around. I was so depressed and my self-esteem was so bad that I just kept taking it, desperately hoping every time would be the last time. Finally in 2012 I found out I didn't have to leave the apartment complex, that I could just keep my lease and move into my own apartment. I ended up across the parking lot from that douchebag, but at least I no longer had to live with him. He spent 2 more years begging me to take him back and continuing to cheat, but finally on July 22, 2014 he said good-bye for the last time. It was a huge relief. He's gone on to cheat on many more women since then, but that's not my problem.

I saw 2 other guys after that, just a few dates that never became relationships and didn't work out, and then I met Don. Well, I should say RE-met. We went to school in Onaway together, but when Dad wanted us to move to Hawks and I ended up graduating from Rogers City High School instead of Onaway, we lost touch for 22 years. We ran across each other on Plenty of Fish and realized we knew each other. We talked for a few days online and by text and then he came from Tower (Onaway technically) to Alpena to take me out on a date. We went to Applebee's. Then we went back to my apartment and watched a couple movies and several episodes of Wilfred. We really hit it off and he ended up spending the night. I had to work in the morning and he had to go back to Tower, but we didn't want to part ways.

We were only apart for a few days when I drove to Tower to pick him up. He ended up staying with me in Alpena for almost 3 months and then I quit asshole McDonald's, where I worked and got barely any hours for 6 years, and he moved me into his house here with him in Tower on February 3, 2015. We've been together since then.

Don is a great person. He went through horrible abusive, cheating relationships just like I did. He is the only person I have ever dated who isn't bad. He has a great sense of humor, he's a hard worker, he'd never do anything to hurt me. We don't rent. He owns the house and the property (or will when it's paid off, anyway, which should be this year). He works for his twin brother Dan building trenching spades that they sell. We're happy together and I'm finally getting over the depression caused by all those years of abuse.

I now work at a gas station in Indian River, 17 miles from here. There are no jobs in Tower or Onaway, so that's what I have to do. I've been there for 1 1/2 years. For 8 months before that I was working at the Wal-Mart in Petoskey. That's too far away. It's a 90 mile round trip every day. That takes too much gas and I was sick of it taking 1 hour to get there and then 1 hour to get home again. When I found out Blarney Castle was hiring I applied and got it. I always close, which, for some reason, at all my jobs, I've always ended up closing. Maybe it's because I clean so well.

At 6 years I started getting fat and it only got worse and worse, especially in 1997 after being pregnant the first time. I ended up at 335 lbs.! I felt and looked horrible. Then in 2014 I lost 150 lbs. I still wasn't to my goal weight, but I looked and felt a whole lot better. But then I gained back 75 lbs! So I'm fighting to get it all off again, but I keep having uncontrollable binges and I'm not sure what's wrong. I just want to get to where I'm never fat again.

All my adult life I lived in apartments and was not allowed to have pets. Now I have 2 dogs, 1 cat, 2 rats, a rabbit, 4 chickens, and several mice. We had a cornsnake, but he got out and we don't know if we will ever find him. Tug is a border collie and Eevee is a short-legged Jack Russell terrier. Sammy is a black cat who was born right here in the kitchen on Halloween 2015. I love them all and it's great to be able to have them.

For over 2 years now we have run a daily vlog on YouTube at https://www.youtube.com/c/tkdwvlogs It's not hugely successful, but we do have a good handful of fans who enjoy watching them everyday. We have had recent financial difficulties thanks to the $4,000.00 balloon payment on the property being due on August 16th and I was very surprised by how many of them stood up and wanted to help us. We're very thankful!

I like going to concerts. I've seen HIM (who are breaking up now), Mushroomhead, Disturbed, Korn, Avatar, We the Kings, AJR, RED, Skillet, Halestorm, Psychostick, Dope, Rammstein, Cute is What We Aim For, Black Veil Brides, Bullet for My Valentine, The Devil Wears Prada, Tenacious D, VentanA, Plaid Brixx, Lasso Astro,
Blue Felix, Angels & Airwaves, Bowling for Soup, Mayday Parade, Yellowcard, and more I can't even remember. I don't know if I could sit down and make a full list anymore or not. I've seen some of them more than once, like Korn, Psychostick, Avatar, We the Kings, RED, AJR, VentanA, and Black Veil Brides. I've been to Warped Tour 4 times. My favorite venue is The Machine Shop in Flint. It's always a long drive to see concerts, though. We live in a barren area, so the closest is Streeter's in Traverse City at 2 hours and The Machine Shop in Flint and places in Detroit are 4 to 5 hours away. I've also gone to Grand Rapids at 5 hours away and once to Chicago at 9 hours away. Our latest was a 2 concert weekend at the beginning of March in Detroit to see first We the Kings (for the 4th time) and then AJR (for the 2nd time) the next night, both at The Shelter in the basement of St. Andrew's Hall in downtown Detroit. It was fun. Concerts are a stress reliever for me. There's nothing like music so loud you can feel it pulsing through your guts.

I like to read and draw. I like comedy movies. I like geocaching and Pokemon Go and fishing and swimming. I love going to Mackinac Island for a day every summer. I used to work there, so I go back for sentimental reasons.

I think I about covered everything. From now on I'll just put normal entries in here, lol.

Us

Bye.

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