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‎October ‎13, ‎2017, Friday:

I got my tongue pierced today. I got up at 8 and took a shower and got Don up and we got ready so we could get there early. They opened at 10. The problem was, we got there shortly after 10 and the shop was already packed with people lined up down the sidewalk. We saw that before we even found a place to park. Dad would have kept right on going and said screw it if he saw something like that, but I have more patience than he does. It took almost 6 hours from the time we got there to the time my piercing was actually done! I guess it was cool to hang out in a tattoo shop all day, but Don was losing patience toward the end.

It did hurt when the piercing was done, but it was over in a matter of seconds, unlike a tattoo that goes on and on and ON. The guy had to put an extra long piercing stud in to allow for swelling and that's what's annoying. It makes it really hard to eat. I sure won't be overeating in the next 2 weeks. After we left we went to Walmart to get multi-vitamins and Ibuprofen and I went to the deli and had Don tell them I wanted some mashed potatoes and gravy. After waiting all day at the tattoo shop I was starving, but eating is now very hard. All I could do was VERY careful swallow each bite of potatoes without chewing. The piercing stud is so long chewing is out.

After that we went to Becky and Troy's and ended up giving Mike a ride to Onaway to his grandma's so he could work. Yes, he's the one we were supposed to go get from North Dakota. He didn't seem drugged up or anything. We stopped and got sugar free popsicles from Save-A-Lot on the way home.

After that we went to Family Dollar and I got some packs of flavored instant mashed potatoes and a Klondike bar, because they say have cold things. Well, I tried to eat the ice cream on the way home and I struggled through 3 or 4 bites and gave up and gave it to Don. Thanks to the chocolate shell on it I couldn't eat it. Oh well, I didn't need it anyway. Family Dollar didn't have anything that didn't have some kind of coating or nuts or some other crap on it.

We came home and Don made me the four cheese instant potatoes and that was my dinner. Anything soft that I can swallow without chewing works. It's going to be even worse tomorrow because of the swelling everybody says I will wake up with. Awhile ago I had some sugar free chocolate pudding and Lite Cool Whip, but I could't finish it, so I saved the rest for breakfast. What else can I eat for breakfast? I can't eat cereal, it's too hard.

I checked the Divergent movies out of the library yesterday. I read all the books a few years ago, might as well watch the movies. We watched one last night, just finished one tonight, and we'll watch the third one tomorrow night. They're due back the 19th.

I lost 4 lbs. the first week, which is good. I didn't ride the bike today because I'm exhausted from getting up so early, but I'll be back at it tomorrow. Since I can't eat much for the next 2 weeks I shouldn't have any problems.

So anyway, so far things are okay with the piercing. I bought more Ibuprofen since we were out, to make the pain less and because maybe it will lessen swelling since it's an anti-inflammatory. The guy at the tattoo shop said to come back in 2 weeks for a regular-sized tongue ring, which means come buy one, but Don said I won't have to do that because he has an extra he can give me. Then it will be at least a year before it can be changed, and I may not ever want to change it. Once it's all healed and I have a normal-sized tongue ring in it will all be fine. Don was joking that I'm late to the party because he and everybody else in his family had their tongues pierced years ago, lol. Even Mike said today that he had his done years ago, and so did Becky, even though she doesn't wear hers anymore.

Well, now we're watching A River Runs Through It and I will probably fall asleep on the couch because I'm really tired.


‎October ‎15, ‎2017, Sunday:

So far things have been okay with the piercing. I've been taking Ibuprofen to keep the soreness under control and the swelling down some. It'll be good when I can take this damn long tongue ring out and change it for a normal length one. That's what's the most annoying about it. It's really in the way. In 2 weeks I can take it out and put a normal length one in. We decided not to go buy one from the tattoo shop. Don has one I can use. If I had money in my checking account I'd order a cool one from, but I don't, so that's okay.

I was surprised. Don really liked the Divergent movies and wants to eventually buy us copies of our own, so that's cool. Too bad he doesn't like to read. I still have all 3 books and he could read them and get the WHOLE story.

Today it's raining and freezing. I guess Fall is finally here. We were going to take the movies back to the library, but it's so crappy we'll wait until tomorrow.


October 16, 2017, Monday:

Now we're at Ma and Dad's picking more potatoes. Becky and Troy were here this morning. Medicaid is gone in Michigan thanks to Trump, so that screws me and everybody else. >:(

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‎October ‎9, ‎2017, Monday:

Today all we did was do laundry, go to town and get rabbit food, take a walk in Awakon Park, I cleaned the toilet, made dinner, and now we're waiting for the new show to come on called The Good Doctor, which is made by the same guy who made House M.D. So far it's very good. We missed the first episode, but saw the second.

Today is day 4 of living healthy. I haven't missed a day on the exercise bike yet. Last night when we got home from Ma and Dad's I made myself one serving of spaghetti with half a wheat hamburger bun toasted with spray butter and garlic powder on it. I put one serving of extra lean tukey burger in the sauce, and one serving of canned mushrooms. I put one serving of parmesean cheese on top. It came out really good. I made Don a chicken breast, baked potato with leftover gravy, and vegetables. He planned on only eating bologna sandwiches and cheesy poofs for dinner. No, that's not healthy, lol, but if I made a whole pot of spaghetti I'll eat too much. I told him next time I'll just have 2 separate batches of spaghetti and sauce going on. He wants more than what I give myself, but I can't measure it out right once it's all cooked, so I have to just take one serving of each ingredient out and make it. Tonight I made baked chicken thighs with no skin and just spices, baked potatoes, the last of that leftover gravy, Bush's Grillin' Beans, and brocolli for Don and spinach for me. Mine was all measured out, of course. In the mornings I have Special K with skim milk, measured, and one cup of coffee with unflavored powdered creamer and Stevia, of course, needless to say, measured. Lunches are either a sandwich with low fat turkey breast or chicken breast lunch meat, a slice of low fat cheese, mustard and raw spinach, or a Lean Cuisine/Healthy Choice dinner. Snacks are fruit and things like pretzels and hummus, and of course, everything is always measured and tracked on Sparkpeople. I have been drinking a lot of water, like 11 glasses a day. I'm in the bathroom a lot, lol. I already feel better. The indigestion I had almost constantly is gone. I've noticed a little more energy. I want to do more than just sit on the couch. Everyday the exercise bike gets easier to ride. I'm not weighing myself until at least Friday. I think once a week is okay, but it shouldn't be more, or I'll get discouraged. But so far, so good.

I decided to finally get my tongue pierced. I've been wanting to have it done since the early years working at McD's when I saw coworkers getting it done. Then when we got together I found out Don has it done. I couldn't really do it while I was working. The problem wasn't that the policy said no because McD's, Walmart and the gas station were not enforcing it. The problem was the recovery time. How could I talk to customers if I sounded drunk for the first few days? lol Ninja Monkey Tattoo in Cheboygan is having a $13 sale on Friday the 13th. They have certain tattoos for $13 and all piercings are $13 except genetalia and micodermals. It's first come first serve and they open at 10 am. so we will get up early and go. I guess my eating won't be a problem for awhile because Don said I will have to eat only soft foods for like 2 weeks, like pudding, Jello, mashed potatoes and broth. Now is the time to do it when it's so cheap, and I might as well get it over with and get it healed and then it's done and over with and I'll have it. I know all about teeth and all that. Don says it's not so bad when you use acrylic balls instead of metal ones. I'll also have to carry plain Listerine around for 2 weeks or so.

And that's about all for now.


‎October ‎10, ‎2017, Tuesday:

Today we went to the Cheboygan dam to try to get some underwater GoPro footage of the salmon, but they're not coming up close to the shore anymore. We will have to do it earlier next year when you can stand there and watch them swarming around everywhere under the water. It wouldn't be a vlog, it would just be its own little short thing. Maybe THAT would get some views from fisherman, lol.

After that we went to Walmart and I got a little bit more healthy food. I needed more skim milk and Don got his yucky whole milk. I got some flat bread wraps, a red pepper, and two acocados. I will be combining those things with the onions, chicken breast and salsa we already have here to make the healthy wraps I used to make in 2014. I know Don won't like them. He hates avocado. I will ask him if he wants to try them without avocado, though. I found one more flavor of those flat pretzels I like, garlic parmasean. They're good with hummus or by themselves and the serving size is 11 of them and that's plenty for a snack. Don isn't eating them up on me this time like he did all the other pretzels I bought because he has 50 lbs. of cheesy poofs he got from Family Dollar. They were going to throw them away even though they weren't expired, so he took them. He's even given some away, lol. Luckily I'm not a big fan of those. I got some light mocha iced coffee like I used to. One cup of it is 90 calories. I bought Don a tiny pumpkin pie and myself a little pack of 2 boiled eggs. I didn't like the eggs. They tasted yucky compared to the ones I used to buy from the gas station I worked at. I will not get them from there again. They weren't expired, so I hope they weren't bad. I got one more pack of veggie burgers and I found some veggie pizza hot pocket things.

After that we went to see Becky and Troy. Mike is indeed living there now, but he was at work. At least he got a job. Becky offered me a donut and I told her I can't eat that. She was confused for a second, then said, "Oh! Are you doing your diet stuff?" Then we talked about it some. Now she'll know not to try to give me junk food, lol.

After that I was starving like crazy, so we went to Speedway and I got a small vanilla iced coffee and a turkey sandwich. Because of that I ate a smaller dinner a little while ago, but I still stayed in my calorie range. Shortly I'm riding the bike so when 10 p.m. comes along I can relax and watch Kevin (Probably) Saves the World and eat my one serving of sugar free Jello and Lite Cool Whip.

Becky gave me $10 to order a phone case she picked out on Amazon from my phone. She got another new phone again, just another generic Android thing. I think it's Straight Talk.

Today it was COLD! I woke up freezing because Don always has to have that fan on high right in bed with us by his head. I was cold all day. I wore a jacket. It's better than roasting half to death, though, and at least it's still above freezing...for now.

'Till next time, bye.

October 11, 2017, Wednesday:

Now I'm at the Onaway library. I'm sick of not being able to get this laptop online. Plus, we weren't doing anything today anyway. Don went to put gas in the car, but he'll be here, too. I'm sitting in the back where I can't plug my laptop in because that gross guy will come crowd the table up front (there's only 2 tables) and breath like he's suffocating and burp and act weird and stretch his arms in our faces and be very rude and intrusive. I know he comes here every day. We always see him walking to and from the library when we come to town. Yuck! And I guess while we're here I'll get a library card. Almost 3 years living here and I still haven't done that.

I just ordered Becky's phone case for her. I was going to have it sent to her apartment, but when I texted Troy he said, "Who is this?" so fine. They can come pick it up from our house.

Not too much else is going on. Oh yeah, we don't know if we will be able to get internet from i2k or not now because we went to look for the tower the guy is talking about. It's supposed to be at a farm on Twin School Road, but there are no towers on Twin School Road. That's a bad sign. Maybe the people took it down and got rid of it.

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‎October ‎4, ‎2017, Wednesday:

Today sucked. The guy from i2k Wireless was supposed to come around noon to test to see if we can get internet here and install it if we can, but he called and said he wasn't coming because it rained overnight and he didn't want to get caught in the rain on the roof. It didn't rain, though, the sun came out. Don said the Heythalers, and this technician is Dan Heythaler, are very lazy people and never want to do anything. i2k is out of Grand Rapids, way the hell downstate, and this is the only technician they have up here. Plus, every time he calls he whines about how it's such a hard job because the antenna on the Onaway water tower is 4 miles away. Really? It's so weak it can't go 4 miles? Then what the hell do we want it for? Ugh! So frustrating. He said he'll come tomorrow. I'll believe it when I see it. I'm not getting my hopes up on his showing up or, if he does, on us being able to get internet from them because 4 miles is SO FAR AWAY from the tower. >:(

Don and I argued today. I hate that. I wanted to find the wifi router in case we can get the internet and it doesn't come with one, but we couldn't find it anywhere. We ended up arguing and he told me to go to hell. What the fuck? He's never talked to me that way before! After Lazy Ass called and said he didn't feel like working today, I went to bed and said fuck it, even though it was like 12:30 p.m. Later Don came in and apologized for telling me to go to hell. Fine. So we went to Cheboygan to go to Walmart to get extra lean turkey burger, which I forgot yesterday. On the way we argued again. I said it seems like he's crabby because he doesn't want to spend the money on having the internet installed and he said, "I told you to get it because all you could do was complain that your phone didn't get signal!" Now, what the fuck? If he didn't want me to get it he should have said so. So we got into an argument about that and by the time we got to Walmart I had stopped talking because he said I was trying to pick a fight, and I went in ahead of him and found the turkey burger alone. He was making me feel like I was being an asshole, forcing him to get the internet when he didn't want it, because I was selfish and I was doing bad things. I was just going to pay for the turkey burger and go back to the car, but I ran into him as I was heading to self-check and he went and got a cart and had us do more shopping. He kept telling me to get the internet and I kept saying no, I was going to call the Lazy Ass and cancel the whole thing. Then he started rephrasing what he said, saying things like, "I had you call to get internet so you'd have something to do." Well, that's NOT what he said the first time! I walked away from him to find pretzels for the hummus I have and he came into the isle I was in and handed me $30.00. I asked him why he did that, if it was bothering him so much to have to pay for the internet installation. He said he wanted me to have it and kept telling me to get the internet. I guess he realized what he said the first time was insensitive and mean.

We ended up stopping fighting and did more shopping. We went to electronics and I got the new version of Rocky Horror Picture Show that they had last year on Fox on DVD, and he found the first season of Sanford and Son and the second season of The Waltons. I grabbed a black T-shirt with a skull and roses on it and one of those premade pizzas they have for dinner. Becky and Troy wanted us to come over, so Don grabbed a foam cooler and a bag of ice to keep the turkey burger cold while we were there. We paid at self check and I ended up ringing it all up together and I put the $20 he gave me in the machine to try to cover the DVD and the shirt I grabbed. I had also gotten some hot deli food for lunch. But then after it was all paid for Don gave me another $20 and told me to put it back in my wallet. ??????? Weird. I guess he was trying to be extra nice because he knew he upset me. Earlier he told me that couples always fight sometimes and that it's not normal if they don't, but after everything bad that's happened to me in my life, I don't want to fight, ever. I don't want to wreck this. I mean, look what happened with Marty. Yes, he was a prick, but his reason for walking out on me was that we fought too much. I don't want to end up losing Don because we fight too much. :(

We went to Becky and Troy's and found out Mike's grandma sent him a bus ticket and he's coming. Nobody wants his drug addict ass here. Becky already said he can't stay at their house and she's not feeding him. She told John to save him the leftover chili he doesn't like because that's all Mike's getting to eat. There are no homeless shelters in Cheboygan, so he's shit out of luck. He used up all his chances with everybody. I don't even want to see him after what he did. And get this shit! After he got out of jail he called Troy and asked when we were getting there. He thought we were still on our way to get him! Really? After being told he was in jail? Nope! We would have had to spend 2 nights in Bismarck anyway if we had kept on going, because he didn't get out of jail until later in the day and were supposed to leave at 8 am to head back to Michigan after picking him up to get back that night. He's dumb!

Yesterday after the library we went to Walmart to do food shopping and I got a Harley Quinn shirt. Both of the shirts I got are too small and I knew they would be, but it's something to work toward. By the time I get to the weight I need to be, Walmart wouldn't have those 2 shirts anymore, because they were considered seasonal Halloween items, so I needed to grab them now and put them away. They're both the same size I was at in early 2015 before I started gaining everything back.

Friday the exercise bike is supposed to be at Walmart in Cheboygan for me to pick up. Then I'll have Don put it together and the next morning I'll start everything from scratch. I bought a lot of healthy food in antici.........PATION! (Nah, just kidding, lol!) There are lots of healthy TV dinners, sandwich meat and cheese, the turkey burger to use instead of hamburger, veggie burgers and veggie chicken nuggets and veggie chicken patties. Next time we shop I'll get some fruit. This HAS to work this time! I am in horrible shape!

We watched the new Rocky Horror while we ate dinner. Don liked that just as much as he liked the original...he didn't, lol! Oh well. Now we're watching The Waltons.


‎October ‎6, ‎2017, Friday:

Yesterday Dan Heythaler from i2k Wireless came and tested for a long time trying to get a signal, but he couldn't. Ugh! He said he'd call his boss and ask if they could expand to a tower on a farm on Twin School Road, since so many people here have been let down by Frontier and need service. He called back and said his boss said yes, so now they have to ask permission from the farm owner and if that person says yes they can do it. I don't know how long it'll take, but as long as the farm owner says yes, we will have internet at home again. i2k is already doing better than Frontier, trying to fix the problem instead of sitting on their asses and refusing to do anything like Frontier.

The exercise bike arrived at Walmart a day sooner than predicted, so after Dan Heythaler left Don and I went up there and picked it up. We got some more healthy food and I bought a comfortable pair of pants to ride the bike in since the yoga pants I bought in early 2014 have finally disinigrated. Walmart discriminates again fat people who want to exercise, though. They only have yoga pants in the tiny little teenager section, nothing in the plus size section! What they do have for plus sized people to exercise in is more like thin sweat pants, which is fine, but why be that way. The yoga pants I bought in 2014 that fit me at more than 300 lbs. say Joe Boxer on the tag, so they are obviously from K-Mart, not Wal-Mart. Oh well, if that's how they want to be.

After that we went t Becky and Troy's again for awhile and then came home. After dinner Don put the new exercise bike together for me.

Today is day 1 of starting from scratch. I weighed myself whenI got up, 299 lbs. Ugh! All day I have eaten 100% healthy and so far the Sparkpeple app has continued to work on my phone so I can track everything. I rode the bike about an hour ago. Damn, that was so hard! I haven't exercised all summer and I can really tell. I better be able to keep this up to finally get down to 135 lbs. and I better be able to stay there for life. No more bullshit! I have had indegestion for days now. I need to flush out my system and get rid of all the nasty shit I've been eating that makes me feel sick. I want to have energy again and not be in physical pain. I'm sick of not being able to wear anything besides morbidly obese clothes. I feel like less of a person right now because I failed so miserbly and I'm really ugly again.
And then we're having problems with asshole Donny Root. I went on Don's Facebook and posted an update on his behalf just for the hell of it since he can't use his laptop to get on Facebook and refuses to use my iPhone for it. Donny Root commented about how Don still owes his mother Sara thousands of dollars and told me to go fuck myself and called me a dumbass. He said he's been here more than once looking for us. Don paid that woman way more than he owed her. He borrowed $8,500 from her 11 years ago. He has since paid her back $12,000.00. That's $3,500 beyond what she was owed. Yes, there's interest, but that extra $3,500 should have covered it. But nope, she wants $3,600 more, making what Don pays her back $15,600. My friend Nikki did the math and that's 96.07% interest! WTF? Banks don't even charge that much interest! This loan never had any paperwork or signatures associated with it, just word of mouth, so she can't sue Don. I know if she walks into a courthouse and wants to file a case that they will want paper proof of the loan. You can't just walk into those places and throw hearsay at them. They want concrete of proof of everything. Plus, she can't pay court and lawyer fees. She moved away in June, we don't know where and she won't say, it's all a big secret, but now she's sending her asshole son over here to harass us. We already had to block her on Facebook and change Don's phone number since his phone doesn't have the ability of blocking phone numbers, and now we've blocked Donny, too. He claims to be Don's friend, but how he's calling me names and shit. That's a respectful thing to do to your "friend's" wife...not! I don't like that he's been here without us home. Our doors don't lock. We can lock the patio door when we're inside, but there's no key to lock it from the outside when we leave. So what we did yesterday when we went to Cheboygan to get the bike was make sure all 3 animals were in the house so Donny wouldn't hurt them, then Don went out and got in the car and I locked the patio door and went out the front door instead, which also doesn't lock, but opens so hard people might think it's locked. I can imagine Donny deciding to steal stuff because we "owe" his mother, or vandilize, or both. These people just need to go away. Don does NOT owe that woman any more money. As a matter of fact, he paid her TOO much. Sara is Don's ex-mother-in-law and Donny is his ex-brother-in-law. We know his ex-wife Ami moved away somewhere, and Sara was supposed to have gone with her. I hope it's true, but we don't need Sara showing up here, and we REALLY don't need Ami showing up here, screaming and making threats. This whole bunch of trailer trash assholes needs to disappear forever. What it is is Sara liked getting that extra $100 in spending money from Don every month and she didn't want it to end, so she lied to him when he asked how much more he owed. It is not fair to Don to have to spend the rest of his life providing a free income to this nasty woman!

I have dinner started now, baked chicken breast, baked potatoes with spray butter, brocolli, and a couple tablespoons of Don's leftover gravy. Yesterday I bought 4 little Tupperware bowls like the ones Ma used to use to divide sugar free pudding up into 4 servings and I filled them with sugar free banana pudding hours ago. We have Lite Cool Whip to put on top, which one serving is two tablespoons. We also have sugar free Jello that we can make the same way with the little bowls. I bought lots of bananas to make banana chips in the food dehydrator and to eat normally. I bought apples and pears. I got 4 boxes of good Special K cereal. One of them is a new kind, Blueberry and Lemon, which I tried this morning, and it was really good. I have skim milk for the cereal. I got pretzels to eat hummus with. There's sandwich stuff and I got some spinach to put on the sandwiches. There's healthy microwave dinners and veggies burgers and nuggets and chicken patties. I bought wheat buns to use with the veggie burgers and chicken patties. I bought cheese sticks. And there's vegetables and potatoes and rice and chicken breast and fish and things like that that we had already. Everything should be fine.

I guess that's all for now. Now that we won't have internet for quite some time I don't know when I'm going to get my laptop online again to post this.


October 8, 2017, Sunday:

Now we're at Ma and Dad's and we just picked a bunch of leftover yellow potatoes out of the field next to their house. The farmer always leaves a whole bunch behind when they harvest them and they'll go to waste, so we always pick some up.

Today it's warm, which is nice.

The diet has gone well so far, but last night I ate a can of soup and went over my calories. I guess it's not the end of the world, but it can't go on. When I get home I'm having a Lean Cuisine dinner for a late lunch and then making 1 serving of spaghetti for dinner. Don can make his own.

Well, that's about all for now. I'll get an update up here again someday, lol.

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‎September ‎23, ‎2017, Saturday:

Yesterday we went fishing in Cheboygan with Troy and his sister from Florida. Becky had to work as always. She works 2 jobs, so she's never home anymore. I caught a little rock bass, which we gave to Troy, and he caught a walleye and couple rock bass. Before that we were visiting with them at their house. Becky was there for like 15 minutes before she had to run off to her second job as a dishwasher at Big Boy. (Her other job is a maid at a motel in Mackinaw City, which she works at the first half of everyday.) We were going to go fishing and all walked out to go, but just then it started thunderstorming, so Troy and his sister went back in the house and Don and I ran to Onaway to get his money from working for Dan, which Dan had texted him that he had for him while we were in Becky and Troy's house. We had to stop by the house to shut the windows and let the dogs in because of the storm. Then we got the money from Dan. I was really hungry and we stopped at Tom's Market for food, but the deli was closed and all the leftovers they package up every day and put in the cooler were gone, so we went to the Village Corner Party Store instead and got gas and bought sandwiches, which they handmake right there and are really good. Then we went back to Cheboygan and met up with Troy and his sister (I never asked what her name is) at the dock across from the damn and fished for awhile. After that they went home and Don and I went to Walmart and bought pudding, skim milk, seasoned fries to have with the brats we were going to have for dinner, and I bought a red light up bobber. A few nights before we saw a guy using one at the dam salmon fishing, so I wanted to check them out. They didn't cost too much, so I got one. They come in both red and yellow. Now Don says he wants to steal it from me, lol. After that we went back to Becky and Troy's. His sister had gone back to the motel and then Becky got home shortly after. We visited for awhile and enjoyed their air conditioning. Even though it was the first day of fall, it was 95 degrees before the storm! After that it went into the 60's and was nice, but now today it's 91 again. Blech! We got home at like midnight and made dinner and ate and watched late night shows and had strawberry pudding and Cool Whip for dessert and then went to bed. In Walmart we saw Justin working and he talked to us. Again he's talking about wanting another job. He just can't stay in one place. He said maybe he'd reapply at the gas station. No! He hated it before and even though there's a new head manager nothing is any better. He will hate it again. He needs to stay at Walmart. It's not too far of a drive from Afton where he lives.

Anyway, now today we are just sitting around hot as hell. Don is doing laundry and hanging it outside since we don't have a dryer anymore. The power went out for about 1 second a few minutes ago. I hope it doesn't go out anymore! Today is not a day for no fans! We're listening to Sirius in the house. Eventually when I get $50 I will order the set up from the Sirius website where I can hook it to my soundbar and won't have to have it hooked up to the car power pack. It comes with a dock for the radio and an antenna for outside and it can be hooked to any sound thing, the sound bar, my stereo, whatever. We can't listen to it in the car anymore anyway. The factory radio went bad, which the Sirius has to go through, so Don put the store bought stereo from the Bravada in, but it constantly blows the tail light fuse for some stupid reason, so now there's no radio at all in the car. Oh well.

Our vlog of the truck show parade has 200 views, but we haven't gained any subs from it. Oh well, at least this channel is doing better at the beginning than our original channel did. TkDw Vlogs used to get like 17 views per video at the beginning, then 20-sum, then 30-sum for a long time. Then sometimes they'd get 50-sum or 60-sum, but not much higher. Once in a while something would go over 100, like special things like the first 2 truck show parade videos, Mackinac Island, 4th of July parade, etc., but the regular daily ones never did very well at all.

We MIGHT have found an internet provider, MAYBE. I saw somebody from this area say i2k is great. Well, they used to be a dial-up company, my parents used them in 1998 when they got their first computer. I checked them out when I first moved over here with Don in Feb. 2015 and they said they weren't available here, so I shoved them out of my mind. After we lost Frontier I kept Googling internet providers for this area, but they never came up in the results. I saw that comment on my cousin's post whining about how she keeps burning up her gigs from Hughesnet (she said, "We only watch one movie a night!" Well, that's it right there, you CANNOT watch video, listen to music, or play games on a limited internet service plan AT ALL, EVER, but she's too dumb to know that.) so I checked them out and sure enough, Tower is listed in their available areas, so is Onaway. It must be something new. They're not dial-up anymore, they work like the company Ma and Dad uses, with the little satellite dish-looking antenna. They're not limited. It's $60 for their fastest speed, which is only $6 more than I was paying for Frontier. I emailed them and they never answered me, though, which I didn't like. All the reviews for them are HORRIBLE, but they are also very old, the oldest being from 2004 and the newest being from 2014. I can't find anything newer to see if they've improved. I posted on Facebook asking if anybody has them and if they're any good. One person said her parents used to have them and they were good. The original comment I saw from my cousin's friend said they're great. I want to hear more positive things first, though, because if we pay that $160, whch is due up front ($100 to install it and the first month of service is due immediately) and it sucks, I'll be pissed. It's a 1 year contract and if you cancel early it's an automatic $300 penalty. But we'll see. It would be nice to not have to run to Cheboygan to upload vlogs, and to not have to fight with my phone to get signal and to not have to worry about eating all my phone data, and to be able to get Netflix back, and to be able to watch the vloggers I like on YouTube again, but we'll see. The final decision is Don's anyway, because he has to pay that $160.00 and the bill every month thereafter. So far he's not against it, but I know he wants to make sure it's not shit, too.

I guess I should make some lunch. I'm really hungry. I still wish I could lose weight, but yeah, that's not working out.


‎September ‎25, ‎2017, Monday:

i2k Wireless says on their website they're available in Tower, but when I called today, the guy took my address and said somebody else had to test to see if it's available here and they'd call me back. Well, then why say it's available in Tower if you don't know if it is or not? *sigh* It's not limited, it runs off a little antenna that looks like a mini satellite dish that Ma and Dad have with Speedconnect, and it's $60 a month for their highest speed, which is only $6 more than I was paying Frontier for their useless shit. BUT I'm waiting for them to call back. Who knows how long that might take, hours, days, weeks? He didn't say. If we can't get it that's it, all hope is lost for good.

It's been hot as hell for days now. It's 88 today. Yesterday was in the 90's. It's supposed to be hot again tomorrow, too, but then go to the 60's on Wednesday and stay that way for as far ahead as the forecast goes on my Weather Channel app. I sure hope so! I'm not begging for snow or anything, but there is no relief when you live in a non-air conditioned house. We've been going to Cheboygan to visit Becky and Troy a lot because they have an air conditioner. We have one, too, but Don won't use it because of the power bill. He might as well get rid of it. It's been sitting on the bedroom floor for 2 years for us to stub our toes on.

Right now Don is gathering copper wire out of the yard from when he worked with Dan laying phone lines for Frontier and they used to dump extra wire into our yard. He's going to go sell it to a scrap yard.
Yesterday while we were in Cheboygan at Becky and Troy's my iPhone ran out of data yet again. It blew through the whole 5 gigs in 2 weeks, and that's with me being super-restrictive: never watching videos, playing games, or playing music, and turning off the cellular data every time I wasn't using the phone. It sucks! This time I have Safety Mode on, so I won't be charged the $15 penalty, but they put it down to snail speed until they refill it on the 10th, and now with the cell phone signal already really crappy out here, my phone doesn't do much. I'm lucky my Facebook wall loads, but if I click on any links on it, it won't go to anything. It makes the phone pretty useless. You'd think now would be the perfect time to watch some YouTube videos, while they're not holding it against me, but none of them will play. Convenient.

Same day, much later:

Don and I went to the junkyard and he turned in the copper wire. He got $65 and gave me $30, set $5 aside for gas, and kept the other $30. He asked where I wanted to go and I said Gaylord. I've been wanting to go there because they've added a lot of new places lately. We went the long way around, down 33 to Atlanta and took 32 the rest of the way to Gaylord. When we came home we went the usual way, I-75 to 68.
In Atlanta we stopped at the BP station for something to drink. It's still in the 90's everyday, so we needed to stay hydrated.

We got to Gaylord and went to Saturn Booksellers, which has moved a couple doors down from where it used to be. I saw the new(ish) versions of the Harry Potter books that have different covers and when they're all set up side by side the bindings make Hogwarts. I know they've been out for years, but I've never run across them in real life. I also saw Dragonflight by Anne McCaffrey. That's the first book in the Pern series. I'm reading them right now and I only have 2 and so far I'm not reading them in order, but I didn't want to pay the $8.00 for it right now. I'll get it sometime. Then we walked down the street to the comic book store and looked at all the expensive stuff they have in there. They had a cool FIM Applejack statue, but it was $30.00.

After that we got back in the car and went to Meijer. The air conditioning felt great in there! Don found a couple DVD's in the $5.00 bin.

I saw there was a PetSmart across the road. That's something new. We tried going there after Meijer, but it said, "Coming Soon," on the building, so we left.

We went to Five Guys for lunch. That's one of the new things and as far as I know, the only one anywhere in northern Michigan. The rest are all in Detoit and Grand Rapids and the other big cities downstate. Next door is a Panera Bread, which is also the same story, but I had to chose one. Can't eat at both at the same time, lol. Next time we will try Panera Bread. The Five Guys food was really good. All the burger toppings are free. I got a cheeseburger with mustard, A-1 sauce, grilled mushrooms and grilled onions. Don got the same minus cheese. He said he didn't want to pay extra for the cheese, even though I paid for lunch, lol. We got cajun fries to share and I got a large drink, which I made Don drink some of. They have 2 fancy touchscreen machines with all kinds of drinks in them and I found peach Fanta, which I've never even heard of. It was good. You can eat free shelled peanuts while you wait for your food. They have barrels of them in the middle of the dining room and little cardboard bowls to put them in. They were good, too. There's loud music and the decor is really cool, lots of red and checkerboard tiles. I liked it. Don thinks it's expensive, but we both ate for just over $16 and I think that's about average.

There's also a new Aldi's they built, but we didn't go in there. It's a store like Save-A-Lot. I see they also built another Starbucks in its own building. I don't know if they still have the little Starbucks kiosk in Family Fare or not anymore. Well, according to Google they do. I do have a $5.00 Starbucks gift card that I got from Verizon for signing up for their points program that I was going to use, but since I had the drink from Five Guys I decided to wait and use it another time. They don't take Starbucks gift cards at the Starbucks in Indian River, which kind of tells me they're not really truly a Starbucks. I guess that's why they have no Starbucks sign outside. They describe themselves as, "Northstar Cafe serving Starbucks coffee."

After that we headed home. Christine called and had us stop by on our way home and she let me borrow some tarot cards and a book on how to use them, and a few other Wiccan books. I told her I explored Wicca back in late 2000, but didn't commit to it and that I only like SOME aspects of it (I don't really want to have to make an alter and cast spells and stuff like that) so she lent me these things. She lent me the cat tarot, which looks really cool, until I buy the dragon tarot, which is the deck I really want. They have all kinds of themes on the decks. She said her grandma, who passed away, was a Wiccan and had all kinds of Wiccan stuff that she inherited. She is going to look through the boxes for a book about runes. I've found some info about runes on Google, but I'm sure a book would have more. She also gave me a set of candles to keep, scents like earth, water, fire, etc., that were also in her grandma's stuff, and they have little charms tied to them with ribbons, so that's cool.

We came home and Don's been doing dishes and he has a DVD playing. He's going to make us spaghetti for dinner when the kitchen is clean. i2k Wireless didn't call back today. Who knows, maybe they never will. If they don't, I'll take their silence as a no, it's not available. *sigh*
Tomorrow Don works some for Dan. It's not a regular thing anymore because the orders for spades have slowed way down, but that's okay.

One more day of it being stupidly hot and then it's supposed to go into the 60's and stay that way. Fine with me.


‎September ‎27, ‎2017, Wednesday:

Ma called this morning. Tony went back to Petoskey to live with whoever he was living with before, where all his stuff is. I wondered what happened to everything he owned because I knew he wasn't carrying it around with him while he slept outside the first 2 nights he was in Alpena, not a guitar, an amp, a TV and who knows what else. He's now dating a 30-year-old woman. *sigh* One bad choice after another. Maybe someday he'll straighten out. Turns out Jasmine didn't chase him to Alpena. It was the other way around. He better not ever go back to Alpena or he'll end up in jail. But anyway, he still won't speak to me and never will again and that's fine because I'm sick of the Jekyl & Hyde bullshit and all the false accusations and verbal abuse. He's made his choice and now he can live with it for good.

Cathy got a loan for a nice Chevy Impala and Ma gave her the $900 for the down payment. She sent me pics and it looks nice. Her Sunfire has had it. Now, if she would just turn in that apartment application and get out of Amy's and get her life fully independent.

Today we went to Cheboygan again to see Becky and Troy. All we do there is watch TV. Then we came home. Before that Don worked for Dan for half the day. He did that yesterday, too.
We came home and Don made burgers and fried potatoes and onions for dinner, which was really good. Now we're watching Modern Family. I like Ed O'Neil.

I got a letter from i2k Wireless today with a paper to fill out and mail back and then when they get it they will come here and test and see if service is available here. I already have it out in the mailbox with the flag up. What a long process. This better be able to work out. We won't have to pay for them to come and test. If there's no signal it won't cost us anything, but we'll still be without internet.

The weather finally cooled off today. It went from 90's to 60's and I'm not complaining one bit. I'm glad. I was sick of roasting in a house with no AC. I'm glad I'm not working at the gas station anymore, though, because my whole shift would have been filled with, "It's freezing!! *WAH* *CRY* *WHINE*," out of the mouths of the same people who had just been crying that it was hot. Blech!

I guess that's all for now, again. We just had pistachio pudding and Cool Whip for dessert.


‎September ‎29, ‎2017, Friday:

Today Don had to go sit at Dan's to wait to sign for a FedEx Freight shipment of spade supplies and then he was free. Today was his SSI payday, so he got that and then came home.

Before he came home Ma called and said she was going to give me the $100.00 to buy a new exercise bike as an early birthday and Christmas present! Well, that's great! I didn't want to ask Don to pay for it. I had $45 saved towards it, but the Mackinaw City gift shops were too tempting when we went to see the semi truck parade. I'll just have it sent Site to Store from since they no longer have exercise equipment in the stores. That will be faster than having it shipped here. Last time I had something shipped here from the Walmart website it took about a month, but when I had something sent Site to Store it only took like 2 days. Then I'll get a text saying it's there and we will go to Cheboygan and get it and Don can put it together for me.

When Don got home we went to Family Dollar in Onaway to buy dog food and then ended up going to Cheboygan to see how much they want for comforters (expensive!). Don bought me a rat skeleton out of the Halloween section and another light up bobber and another one for himself. Now we have one of each shape and color. We got some liquid white chocolate raspberry coffee creamer. When we were in there we ran into Becky and Troy and then met them at their house afterward to visit. While we were in Walmart Ma called again and told me she mailed the money (it's another secret from Dad, of course) and to let her know when I get it. I'm very thankful for her help because otherwise I don't know how long it would have taken to get a new exercise bike.

Becky went to work as always and we visited with Troy for a little while longer and then went back to Onaway for gas and came home and Don made dinner. Now we're watching some weird show on TV where a redheaded woman is strangling a guy with her computer generated hair. ???? I'm not really paying attention, lol.

I have allergies today and it sucks. I have been sneezing all day and now I'm getting stuffy. We don't have any allergy pills. I'm so glad I'm not working at times like this because right now I'd be at work feeling like shit, trying to run and clean the whole place all by myself as always and if I wasn't able to get everything 100% perfect, I would have gone to work tomorrow to be greeted by snotty assholes notes written about it all over the daily chore list from either Carol or Stacy, whoever opened. I'm so glad that babyish bullshit is over! It wasn't right that the closers were expected to do EVERYTHING while the openers and mid-shift people did NOTHING except run register and make coffee, and then they all bitched that the closers suck at their job. Mind you, each closer always worked their entire shift completely alone no matter how busy it was. DeLynn, the district manager, and Dawn, from corporate, were supposed to fix it, but they did not. The last few times I did go in there proved everything is exactly the same even with a new head manager. That place can go to hell.


‎October ‎2, ‎2017, Monday:

Uuuummmm, that was expected and weird! Saturday Becky called Don crying saying we needed to go get her son Mike from Bismarck, North Dakota where he was staying at a homeless shelter because some drug dealer wanted to kill him. This crap has been talked about for about 2 months now, where Becky planned on having Troy, Don and me take her car, on her dime, and go get him, but then he'd call and say forget it, so I shoved it out of my mind as anything that would ever actually happen. That's why I didn't even bother writing about it here or posting on Facebook about it or anything. He went out there, originally to Watford City, ND, to stay with his brother Jeff and while out there got back on drugs, became a skin-covered skeleton, and his wife left him and took their toddler Gracie with her. Jeff kicked him out and he ended up hours away from where he started out, homeless, but all this is his fault since he's a drug addict.

So anyway, we got ready and left and went to Becky and Troy's and spent the night there so we could leave early in the morning. Becky couldn't go because she works two jobs and Troy has no driver's license, so the driving was on Don and me. We took the dogs to Becky and Troy's so Becky could feed and water them while we were gone, but we ended having to take them back home again and leave them here alone, with Becky having to drive down here everyday between her first job and second job to feed them. First some prick called the cops and said Tug was untied and was chasing him down the street trying to kill him. Those dogs were NEVER untied for one second while they were there AND Tug doesn't act like that. He just walks up to people wanting to be petted. So we moved them both further away from the sidewalk. Becky wouldn't allow them in the house, her own dog can't even go in the house, so they had to stay outside. A little while later the neighbor came pounding on the door whining that she couldn't sleep and had to work in the morning and her baby couldn't sleep because Eevee and Becky's husky Roxy were barking at each other. So we got pissed off and drove them all the way home. When we got back we found out the cops showed up yet again right after we left saying somebdy called and said there was a pitbull untied running around barking. Absolutely untrue! Border collies and Jack Russell terriers look nothing like pitbulls and again, neither dog was EVER untied while they were there. Cheboygan is full of trailer trash assholes who like to cause problems. It's like Alpena number 2.

So Becky put an air mattress in the kitchen for us to sleep on, which was fine, but then I never slept all night because she insists on having a loud radio playing all night because she can't sleep. Well, I can't sleep with a radio going. I dozed off for a minute or 2 here and there, but always woke right back up. It sucked. We had to get up early to leave, so I was exhausted all day.

Becky took our car for work and we took theirs on the trip because it's newer. We started with Don driving. We had to fight with Troy's GPS because it wanted to send us down through Chicago and back up, which is way out of our way and very stupid since we were only 14 miles away from the Mackinac Bridge to go through the Upper Peninsula. Why the hell would we go south first? It's like the GPS didn't realize there's a bridge and thought it was 1950 again. Yes, the maps were up to date, so I don't know what the fuck.

Don drove a couple hours and then we switched at a rest area in the UP. I drove for like 4 hours, until the middle of Wisconsin, and then I told him I'd had enough and Don took back over.

It was about 5 minutes later that Troy's cell phone rang. Becky had been calling him to check on us all day, but this time she said she found out Mike was in jail and we had to turn around and go home. How ridiuclous! All those hours driving! It was about 4:30 Michigan time and we had left at 8. All that gas wasted! So we stopped at a truck stop in Cadott, WI with a big Veteran's Memorial and waited for Becky to call back and absolutely cofirm it. Jeff called her and she called the cops and yup, he was in jail. They told her he beat up an old man to steal his cell phone and it was really serious and there was no way he was getting out of jail. He did it at about noon and he knew we were coming, so he was a fucking prick to not be able to control himself long enough for us to get him. We are done, even Becky, nobody's going to try to help him ever again. He can stay at that homeless shelter for life since drugs mean more to him than finding a job and getting an apartment and getting his daughter back. We didn't need somebody like that in the car anyway, possibly flipping out and beating the shit out of us. He's 30 years old but doesn't act it.
We stayed there for a few minutes, stretching our legs and taking pictures of the things at the war memorial. We went into the truck stop so I could find a souvenir. I figured if this was as far as we were going to make it I might as well. I had planned on buying a magnet from each state we went to, which was going to be Wisconsin, Minnesota and North Dakota, but we didn't make it all the way, so I found a magnet that said Cadott, WI with a bear on it and that's good enough. I also bought a bag of handmade white cheddar cheese curds that had been made right there that day. I mean, it's Wisconsin, might as well buy cheese, right? They were really good. Troy got Becky a keychain with her name on it. Then we left and headed home. Of course, the asshole GPS, after we hit the, "Go Home," button, wanted us to go through Chicago again, so we shut it off and used the GPS on my phone instead.

I was disappointed that we didn't make it to a state I haven't been to yet, but I was also tired and wanted to go home. The original plan was to get to Bismarck and get a motel room and sleep and pick up Mike in the morning and go back to Michigan, and I'm sure I would have felt better after some sleep. It was supposed to take 14 1/2 hours, so we would have made it at about 11:30 p.m., according to the GPS. But now we had that long trip back home ahead of us, about 8 hours worth. Ugh!

Don drove until we got back into Michigan and then switched with me and I drove the rest of the way back to Cheboygan. Shortly after we got into Michigan we stopped at a gas station to use the bathroom and saw a woman trying to dump off two springer spaniel puppies. What a bitch!

We made it back to Becky's at midnight and talked to Becky a minute and then went home. We were absolutely exhausted! We went to bed and I slept until 1 p.m. and Don slept until 1:30. Now today we've just been relaxing. I'm sore from sitting in the car all that time. Yeah, we made stops, but not many and not for long.

Now today, after the cops telling her Mike committed the worst crime there is in North Dakota being charged with the highest level felony they have there and that he'd rot in prison, she got a phone call saying they let him out and dropped the charges. Well, it's too late, we're done, Becky's done. Nobody is going to help him anymore. He's way too fucked up. That was very disrespectful of him, knowing his mother had a ride on the way for him and it was going to take FOREVER and cost lots of money, to not keep himself under control long enough for us to get there. I sure as hell am not doing it again.

While we were at Becky and Troy's Saturday night to spend the night I noticed Tony unblocked me. Something came up on my Facebook saying he added my cousin Jon to Facebook and I could see his profile again. Oh hell no! This is not happening, not again. I know he unblocked me so he could be verbally abusive again. Nope, last time was enough. He clearly made his point and nothing else needs to be said. Even if he did apologize, he's a Jekyl and Hyde and before I knew it he'd be nasty to me again. So I blocked him, which is what I've been planning to do if he unblocked me. Now the blocking power is in my hands and he's not getting it back. I still firmly believe he will be much happier if I don't exist in his life, since he blames EVERYTHING on me and ONLY me, even the things Chris did and the things Amy and Duane did. According to him his "mind is royally fucked up," just because of me. So there's no sense in him seeing me or talking to me and reopening his wounds. Things were shitty when they were little, yes. I was a shitty parent, but I wasn't the ONLY shitty parent. AND I was going through shit, too. Chris was beating me up just as much as he was beating them up. But oh yeah, I have to remember, it's ALL my fault and ONLY my fault. >:(

Tomorrow is Don's payday. He has to work, but first he's going to the credit union to deposit money into my account so I can pay the bills with my debit card. Hopefully he doesn't have to work too long because we need to go to Cheboygan so I can upload the new vlog at the library and we need to food shop. The library is open until 8 p.m. I can also finally put this long-ass entry on Dreamwidth and LiveJournal.


‎October ‎3, ‎2017, Tuesday:

HOPEFULLY we will have internet at home tomorrow, I HOPE. The guy from i2k called and said he can come tomorrow and test and see if we can get signal and install it if we do. He said their tower is on the Onaway water tower, which is only 4 miles from here, so I sure hope it's strong enough to get here. If we can get it I don't know if we'll owe him $150 or $210. The website says the $100 admin install fee and the first month of service, which is $60, is due on the spot. But then they sent a letter saying the $100 admin install fee and another install fee of $50 is due and doesn't say anything about the first month being due immediately. Ugh! So I told Don to set $210 aside just in case. Then after that it will be $60 a month, which is only $6 more than I was paying Frontier. Hopefully if we can get it, it works better than Frontier did.

I paid the Verizon bill and put the $9.00 for Dollar Shave Club into my checking account for them to take it when it's due. I got the $100 from Ma yesterday in the mail, so I gave it to Don to put in my account along with the bill money he was depositing in there so I could order the exercise bike. It's supposed to be at the Cheboygan Walmart through Site to Store on Friday. Then after Don puts it together I will officially get started. I look and feel like shit. Always in pain, no energy at all, no flexibility. I wanted to puke while I was editing the road trip vlog, just looking at my huge face, and then I gave the camera to Don when we were at the big Veteran's Memorial at the truck stop in Cadott, WI so he could film me and my whole body looks horrible, just as bad as it did at 335 lbs., which I'm not far from now. I never wanted this to happen, but I failed, just like I did when I was 19. I don't even want people to see me until I've lost lots of weight, but I can't just shut myself in the house. It doesn't work that way.

As you all know, Tom Petty died yesterday. That sucks! I became a fan on him in 9th grade when I bought Full Moon Fever on tape after seeing the Free Fallin' video a lot on Mtv. It was unexpected, a massive heart attack. Then nobody was sure if he really died or not because the news reported his death prematurely, but now as of this morning it's been officially confirmed by Tom Petty's manager on the Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers Facebook. Ugh!

And of course, that country concert shooting in Las Vegas. Christine texted me and said it's not safe to go to concerts anymore. Well, not necessarily. This guy was just some crazed nut who snapped, not the terrorists. So hopefully nobody else does anything like that, but then who knows?

It's hot today, but not like last week. Well, time to take a shower so I'll be ready for when Don gets out of work to get this laptop up to Cheboygan to upload the vlog and do some shopping.



Now we're at the library uploading the vlog. I had to reexport it because I realized I forgot to put the intro on. Duuuuuhhhhh!!! Now it's all set. I have to remember to monetize it before we leave. I'm so used to not being allowed to do that that I never remember to do it now. After this we're doing a little shopping. This shouldn't take too long. It's already at 36% and we've been here about 20 minutes.

Bye for real this time.
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‎September ‎8, ‎2017, Friday:

I guess I'll start doing this again, where I write journal entries at home, keep adding and adding, and then get them on the website when I can get the laptop on public wifi.

It has absolutely sucked not having internet, but of course, Frontier is to thank for that. I have to keep the data turned off on my iPhone for good, too, because 5 gigs is not enough, even with turning it off when I'm not using it and not playing games, videos or music. I'm not screwing Don into having to pay another $40.00 a month to have unlimited data on top of the $102.00 he's already paying for our phones. Plus, I've been told it's not even unlimited, even though that's what Verizon advertises it as, it's only 20 gigs a month, so fuck paying all that extra just to still be at risk of running out and getting slapped with that $15.00 penalty. I already ended up going over this month, even with being extra careful and keeping the data turned off 95% of the time. It all just sucks. So I will wait until I can get to public wifi to use anything on my phone besides calling and texting. I'm thinking about just deactivating my phone and only having Don's on the plan and just share the phone number. I mean, why the hell have an iPhone that I can't use as an iPhone? It's a waste of money. Of course, there's still no hope for finding an internet provider in this area so I can have my phone on wifi most of the time like I used to and Frontier still doesn't give a shit about their customers.

Last week Ma and Dad had to have their dachshund Biskit put to sleep. :( He was 13 and he had what the vet thinks might have been a stroke. He had a big seizure and then was very sick. He couldn't eat, couldn't hold himself, was always wandering around confused, was losing weight, he'd cry if anybody picked him up, so he was obviously in pain, and the vet said his liver was failing. Ma and Dad decided not to make him suffer anymore. Poor little dog! At first Ma said they wouldn't get another dog, but she said that after Molly died and said it again after Zipper died. I knew better. We went there Tuesday to visit and sure enough, they're looking for a new dog. Dad needs a dog. His depression could get worse without one. They were going to give us Biskit's cage for Eevee to sleep in so she doesn't eat the house during the night, but they decided to keep that and gave us a different one instead that they had in the garage.

Eevee sleeps in that every night now instead of staying tied up by the door, but we have to fight her every night in order to get her in there. She won't go in on her own. Oh well. She'll get used to it. I had to guess on when her birthday is, but based on the date of a photo of her on the Facebook of the woman we got her from, where she looks to be about 8 weeks old, I decided on September 12th, so she's almost 1. I also expect her to go into heat soon. She won't be able to go outside alone because the neighbors' dogs will all come running. We will set up everything to get her spayed soon. We'll call that same place in Indian River that helped with getting Tug and Sammy neutered.

Tony is in Alpena at the homeless shelter. Jasmine broke up with him yet again, but followed him to Alpena and she's now posting bad things about him on Facebook and getting her friends to go to the shelter to try to beat him up. It's all really stupid. She's staying with the owners of John Boy's restaurant and they called the cops and said he went in there and ate and didn't pay for his food, but he hasn't been in there for years. Ma called and told me about it. I didn't figure out what was going on until I saw the owners are the ones Jasmine lives with now. They're just trying to cause trouble for him by making up lies. It's all really trailer trashy. However, if Tony wants it all to go away, he needs to realize he has to never, ever talk to Jasmine or anybody she knows ever, EVER again. He can't see that, though, and he keeps pestering her to take him back. He's going to end up in jail. She already tried to get a PPO (Personal Protection Order aka Restraining Order), but was denied. In the meantime, he still won't talk to me (and I don't want him to) and he is now treating Cathy the same way he is treating me, sending her texts filled with profanity and crap. If he starts treating Ma that way I'll be really pissed!

The other day we went to Cheboygan a couple times to food shop and now the kitchen is REALLY full. We won't have to worry about groceries for a long time. Don bought a coffee percolator for making coffee on the fire when we go camping again. My Uncle Dennis gave us an air mattress for the tent and Ma gave us thick blankets to stay warm. I don't know when we'll go again, though. It's been cold and rainy for a long time now.

Next week is the the Richard Crane Memorial Truck show parade in Mackinaw City again. We'll go to that and it will be our next vlog. It's been really hard vlogging. I only want to film exciting things and nothing exciting has happened since we went camping. Oh well. Sure, I could daily vlog again, and then we'd have to go to the Cheboygan library everyday to get public wifi that's good enough for uploading. That's a 52 mile round trip and lots of gas money. It would be different if we lived in Cheboygan.

I weigh 293 lbs. now. :( I've gained almost all of it back. I keep trying to eat right, but I just fail and fail and fail. All I ever want to do in life is eat! I'm still saving money for a new exercise bike from Walmart. com. I have $45 out of $100 so far. Any money I get a hold of gets saved. Don gives me spending money, I put it away. Carissa had me edit an image for the cover of one of her books and sent me $20 for doing it and I saved that, too. Maybe if I could get exercising and start SEEING progress like I did in 2014 I could stick with it. But right now I'm gaining 20 lbs. a month. Ugh!

We've been watching lots of DVD's and some things on regular TV. I've been coloring adult coloring book pages to try to keep busy and NOT binge eat. I want to play games on the PS3, but Don always has DVD's playing, so I be polite and don't make him stop them. I brought the Sirius into the house so we can listen to it in here. It's paid up until the end of December, so we might as well use it. Plus, after I brought it in, the radio stopped working in the car, so I can't use it in there anymore anyway.

I changed the plugs in my ears the other day. I'm to size 4 now. There's only 1 more time to go, and that's to size 2, and then I'm done. I'm not going any further. I'll order the 2's in 2 or 3 months when it's time to change them again. Then I won't have to change them anymore, which will be good, because it hurts.

By the time I'm able to post this entry, Hurricane Irma will be over, but I hope it's not too bad. I know a few people who live there, Carissa and her family, Sara and her family, Christina, a woman I went to school with named Mya and her little granddaughter. Even Charles Trippy, Travis Clark and Danny Duncan, all from YouTube and We the Kings, live there. I have no way without the internet to know if they're okay or not. I can't dare turn the data on on my phone because it eats it like crazy even if all I do is look at my Facebook! Even on the 10th when they refill the 5 gigs I won't use it. I'll just let it roll over month after month after month. Eventually there will be tons of data built up and I STILL won't use it. I'm sick of the $15 overages. I really do need to get rid of that iPhone, even though I hate to. Thanks a lot, Frontier! They fucked me over really good.

Bye until next time. I'll just keep adding and adding until I can post this, and then I'll start another one.

‎September ‎10, ‎2017, Sunday:

Today we got really bored and went up to Cheboygan to see Becky and Troy. Of course, goofy John was there too, lol. They had on this annoying movie on Lifetime called, "Mommy's Prison Secret." It was dumb as hell and the woman playing the bad guy was really annoying, her hair, the way her lips moved, her attitude. She really got under my skin. Yuck! Becky had to go to work, so the rest of us went to the dam to see if the salmon are running yet. Thankfully we did not finish that stupid movie. We watched other people fish, and we saw like 3 salmon jump, but we didn't try fishing ourselves because we knew we wouldn't catch anything. Nobody was. After that we took Troy and John home and then Don and I went to Burger King for lunch. Now we're home and Don is making dinner.

He has a DVD in of a really crappy movie called, "The Poltergeist of Borley Forest." Nobody knows how to act AT ALL. I looked up the reviews and they're horrible. That's why I'm writing this entry and then I will play Solitaire, which I did finally find on Windows 10.

The data on my phone refilled today, but I already used up 10% of it today alone, and that's with repeatedly keeping the data shut off when I'm not using it and using wifi instead of data when we were at Burger King eating. *sigh* It really sucks to not have wifi at home for the phone to hook to in order to conserve the data.

I guess that's all for now. We will eat in a while and then just relax for the night. Bye for now.

‎September ‎14, ‎2017, Thursday:

Travis and Amber decided to give their chihuahua Toby. He's 1 1/2 and a nice dog, so that's good. Dad kept saying, "I can't live in this house without a dog!" They applied to adopt a dog from the Atlanta Humane Society, but they were denied just like we were in 2015 before we got Tug. That place is run by assholes. Now they won't adopt to people who don't have a fenced-in yard. Oh well.

I guess everybody is okay from Hurricane Irma, just there's no power. I'm glad there wasn't mass destruction and deaths.

Don started working for Dan again as of today. It will be about 10 hours a week, so that's an extra $400 a month, which will be nice. Also, today the power bill came and it said we had a $15 credit and we don't owe anything. The bill didn't say why, so we thought it had to be a mistake. Don called them and they said that after 5 years they gave him back his $120 deposit, which pays for this bill and pays $15.00 on next month's bill. Well, okay, then. That gives us some extra money. Don said I'll be able to get my exercise bike in October now. I already have $45 saved toward it.

Today we went fishing down the railroad tracks from here and got a lot of panfish. At one point I thought a turtle was swimming toward us, but then I realized it was a big snake! Ewwww, just NO! Don laughed at me because I hid behind him until it was gone.

Last night before bed I saw some snotty-assed teenager trying to sell pudding stones at $55.00 per stone, or $400.00 for a half a wheel barrel full, on the Cheboygan Buy, Sell, Trade group. Don has been collecting them for most of his life and knows they only sell for 32 cents a pound, so at $55 the single stone would have to weigh 171 lbs and it did NOT. The wheel barrel full would have had to weigh 1,250 lbs. and it certainly did NOT. I tried to explain this to the kid. I wasn't rude about it, but of course he was. He was probably about 17 years old and he got really snotty and stupid, telling me I know nothing and he "put me in my place." He said he could get $2.00 a pound for them. So that means the small stone would have had to weigh 27 1/2 lbs., which it was only the size of a small potato, and the half a wheel barrell full would have had to weigh 200 lbs, which it obvioulsy did not. So he's still scamming people one way or the other, even at the price he quoted himself. So I blocked him. Then, for the rest of the night, I kept getting Facebook messenger requests from his friends, all of which also looked to be about 17, all being stupid and obnoxious. I'm glad today's school kids have nothing else to do than harass somebody more than twice their age. I just went to the Facebooks of each little brat and blocked them one by one as their asshole messages came in. One of them said he called the cops on me. Yeah? For WHAT? Then he said, "Oh no! You're related to the Schoolcrafts! That explains it all!" That one pissed me off. Yes, we have people in the family who are very trailer trash and spend a lot of time in jail, but I am NOT from that part of the family. The Schoolcrafts are divided, the good ones and the bad ones. Thanks to those no-good assholes, though, anybody who sees the Schoolcraft name automatically assumes we are ALL bad. Guilty by association. It sucks. This little brat only knew because he was trolling through my Facebook and I had left the photo I took of my grandma Schoolcraft's card with her handwriting in it public in case anybody in the family wanted to share it. I have since switched it to friends only. Nobody needs to know who I'm related to and who I'm not. But meanwhile, I hope that little con artist has fun trying to sell his $400 rocks. They're on the ground all over. That's how Don finds them and he just brings them home because they're pretty.
Saturday we're going to the Richard Crane Memorial Truck Show parade in Mackinaw City like we have since 2015. I'll be vlogging it. I want to go early enough to look through the gift shops. Then I will go to the Cheboygan library on Monday to upload it. I wish we had more cool things to do that I could vlog, but we don't. I don't know what we'll do in the winter.

Don has the second Karate Kid movie playing in the PS3 and he's making pork chops for dinner.


September 17, 2017, Sunday:

Friday we went to Cheboygan to the dam to try salmon fishing. They were all over in there. We could see them swimming around and they kept jumping out of the water, but we didn't catch any and neither did anybody else who was there. Salmon only have spawning in mind and do not want to eat, so it's ridiculously hard to catch them. After that we went to Hammond's Bay to the mouth of the Ocqueoc River close to where it connects to Lake Huron. They were jumping around there, too, but again, we caught nothing. 4 young guys showed up and didn't catch anything, either, except the one guy who was alone. He caught one as we were leaving. Oh well. We will try again in Cheboygan after I upload the new vlog at the Cheboygan library tomorrow.

Yesterday we went to the Richard Crane Memorial Truck Show parade in Mackinaw City. We picked up Troy on the way there. Becky had to work and John wanted to fish. We went early so I could look around in the shops. I got some runes from Enchanted Knights. My last set of runes was stolen along with everything else I owned in 2001, and when I colored that adult coloring book page with the fox with runes, it got me thinking about them. I also want a deck of dragon tarot cards, which they also had, but I didn't have tons of money and that shop isn't cheap. I saw a really nice diary in there, but it was $46.00! Anyway, it was really nice to walk around and look at all the stuff. Don and Troy ended up finding a bench after awhile and I went off on my own. It's not really their thing. I got some food from KFC, which is right by where we parked, and ate it on the bunch outside because there aren't enough tables in that little KFC for many people to sit in there. Eating outside is nice anyway. We just settled down then and waiting for the parade to start. I kept seeing people walking around with really good looking ice cream cones from the fudge shops and it made me want one. I walked around a little bit collecting items off Pokestops in Pokemon Go and I ended up coming back to the bench with a waffle cone with coffee ice cream from JoAnn's Fudge, lol.
Time went on and it got dark and we decided to watch the parade from by the car, which was just across the street from KFC and the bench anyway. I got Don to go into KFC and get himself some food because I realized he didn't eat AT ALL all day and it was already almost 9 p.m.! I don't like how he does that to himself. He brought it back and used to trunk of the car as a table to eat it on.

Around 9:30 the semi trucks finally started coming over the Mackinac Bridge from St. Ignace where the truck show actually was. They start the parade in St. Ignace, come over the bridge, make a big loop through Mackinaw City, and get back on the bridge (which is actually the I-75 freeway in case anybody was curious), and go back to St. Ignace. We were right downtown this time instead of off on a side street by the hotel Becky used to work at and I think it was better. We seemed to be closer to the trucks as they went by and everything we needed was there, all the shops, food, bathrooms. That's where I want to watch it from from now on. We had chairs in the trunk and set them up behind the car (parking goes straight down the middle of the street in downtown Mackinaw City). Tons of other people did the same thing.

The parade lasted an hour and as always it was really cool. I don't know how many trucks there were, but it was lots and lots. They were all shiny clean with really cool lights on them. Alex Debogorski from Ice Road Truckers was back and was driving a different truck this year, a white one. There were also 2 very old Greyhound style buses from the 1960's. I filmed the whole thing, but I didn't use it all today when I edited the vlog. That would have made the whole thing over an hour long. Nobody on YouTube wants to sit through a vlog that long. I just kept all the highlights, the coolest looking trucks, Alex Debogorski, the 2 buses, trucks with murals, things like that. It came out to just over 11 minutes, which is normal for a vlog.

After that we took Troy home and visited with him and Becky for a little while. By then it was midnight. We left and Don stopped by the dam to see if there was enough light to fish because salmon bite better after dark. There was, but there were also a ton of people there trying to do the same thing, so we left. We stopped at Walmart because I wanted a bottle of water because KFC makes you thirsty. I didn't plan on eating anything more, but Don wanted a rotisserie chicken and some potato salad, so when we got home we ended up eating a very late dinner of chicken, potato salad and Bush's Grillin' Beans (which are really good, btw). Oh well, lol. Then at 2 a.m. or so we finally went to bed. It was a really good day, though.
Now today I just edited the vlog and we're relaxing. It's been thunderstorming on and off all day. I have my DVD's of Aqua Teen Hunger Force seasons playing and Don thinks it's really stupid. He went outside, lol. Oh well, he's been making me sit through Gilligan's Island seasons and that's stupider than stupid, too, so fair is fair!

Tomorrow we will go to the Cheboygan library to upload the vlog. It shouldn't take just under 2 hours like last time because this one is only 11 minutes long. Then Don wants to try salmon fishing again. We've been trying to catch salmon since 2015 and we haven't been able to, so my hopes are not up.

Ma called and said her and Dad went and picked Tony up from the homeless shelter in Alpena and took him to the doctor (he has bronchitis) and bought him some food from McD's. He sat in the car and talked shit about me, so nothing's changed with him. Nothing ever will. Ma needs to chew him out for having such a bad attitude. She seems to be the only person he respects as an adult, well, and Dad, too. They need to tell him how he treats people is wrong and shitty, but I don't know if they will.

Tomorrow I can also finally put all this crap in my journal, lol!

Bye again.

September 18, 2017, Monday:

And here I am in current time. I'm at the Cheboygan library uploading the vlog. Wow! It's at 76% after only a few minutes! If only I could have this internet at home, but yeah, that can never happen.

I dropped Don off at Dan's to work. I will go back there when I'm done here because he left his phone at home, so he can't text him when he needs to be picked up, plus Dan did not leave him the truck to ship spades, so I need to get the car back to him before 5 so he can do that. It's 11:20 now.

Last night we went back to the Cheboygan dam to try to salmon fish again, but of course we caught nothing. I really have no hope that we ever will. They don't want to eat. You can't just go in the water and grab them, lol.

Well, that's all for now. I'll keep making entries at home in Wordpad and then whenever I can get this laptop back online again I'll put them here.


Here's the new vlog. I don't even think that took a half an hour!


Aug. 21st, 2017 12:16 pm
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Well, we're in Cheboygan at their public library using the wifi, which I'm pretty sure runs off Charter instead of asshole Frontier like all of Onaway does. It's working very well so far. We decided to retire TkDw Vlogs and change Don's channel into a new vlogging channel where we only vlog the cool things we do, like camping, road trips, concerts, whatever else, instead of trying to film a video every day, which usually just consisted of us sitting around the house. Since we no longer have convenient access to the internet, that will be a lot easier. This library is 26 miles away from home. I can't do this every day! So the new channel is called Wilton Adventure Vlogs and it's at . I'll have to eventually see about getting a custom URL like I had for the old channel, but I don't know if Don's channel has enough views for that yet. Probably not (no). We're uploading our first vlog now, which is a 3 day camping trip that we just went on. It was fun. It should make a good vlog, I would think. After that I don't know when we will have anything cool to film again, but that's okay, because like I said, we can't run up here a whole lot. We won't have as many vlogs, but they will be better vlogs, so that should be good. And Don's channel is monetized, as long as nobody fucks it up this time.

So anyway, we picked a free campsite on the Black River behind where we live and set up and cooked food on the fire, roasted marshmallows, and fished and just had a good, relaxing time. We were there from Friday until Sunday. We took Tug and Eevee, but Eevee refused to stop barking all night both nights, so I think she can stay home next time. We had a good time and we will do it more. The last time I camped was 2000 and Chris' mother turned me in to the cops and treated me like shit and it was all just terrible. This was much better.

Today is the solar eclipse. It's supposed to be 70% here. I know it'll get dark outside, but not totally dark. We don't have the glasses, but we'll just look at the dimness.

Not much else has been going on. I'm hungry, but I only have a dollar, lol!


This Is It

Aug. 9th, 2017 12:23 pm
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The last one. :(

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So this is what happened when the technician from Frontier showed up. He changed some things in the box on the side of the house, then went into Onaway and did some stuff in the building there, then came back and said all hope was gone. He said there were no working ports in the PED on the side of the road to switch us to and Frontier refuses to replace the main line to fix the problem, so call and cancel my service because Frontier only cares about California, Texas and Florida. WHAT THE FUCK?! So the next morning I did just that. That's it, it's over. We cannot get internet at home ever again because Frontier was it. We can't have something that's limited AND Don does not want to have to pay for satellite TV since those companies don't allow you to have just the internet. So we have to give up our YouTube channel. All the public wifi in Onaway is also Frontier and it takes 11 hours to upload a vlog. I can't sit in Subway, or at Woodwinds, the library or in Dan's garage for 11 hours a day! That would take up my whole life so I can't do anything else and what the hell kind of vlogging material would that be, just me sitting in Subway every day forever? Plus those old women who work at Subway would get pissed off at me pretty fast. So I deleted almost 2 weeks worth of vlogs that were sitting on my laptop and can't be uploaded and said fuck it. I filmed a small clip last night explaining what's going on for the subscribers who are not on my Facebook so they know, and it's over, TkDw Vlogs is dead thanks to Frontier not caring about their loyal, long time customers. The channel may not have hit it big like Charles Trippy, Markiplier and all those other huge YouTubers, but I did have a decent following of people who wanted to watch my videos and now they're disappointed. If we had good, strong public wifi around here like they do in big cities where it would take an hour or 2 to upload, I could still do it, but 11 hours a day is ridiculous. So Frontier's pure laziness and lack of caring shut down my YouTube channel. I'm at Dan's right now, in the garage, sitting at a grimy work table, so I can upload that last video and do a few other things, and then that's it. I'm sure once in a while I'll come into town with Don to be online for awhile, but without internet at home I can't regularly vlog, so fuck it.

Aaaaaaand...then there's this:

That's absolutely ridiculous! I see a pattern here. When Jasmine breaks up with him he'll talk to me, and when she takes him back he will be nasty and abusive, an endless cycle. Nope, no thanks, I'm done. He already blocked me on Facebook and I blocked his phone number. That's absolutely it! I told both Cathy and Ma, if he ever asks about me, to tell him I died. That's what he wants, me dead, and that's the only thing that will give him peace of mind. Then I found out from Cathy that he wants Chris to come live with him and Jasmine. Oh great. Choose the abusive child molester over me. I did not break Tony's nose. It had to be Chris sometime when I wasn't in the room and Chris lied and hid it. But no, have that guy come live with you and be abusive and disrespectful to me, fine. When Chris makes Tony give him blowjobs, and that's what Chris does, maybe Tony will wake up. In the meantime, I'm done, that's enough.

I went to the doctor awhile back and he tested my liver and I don't have raised liver enzymes anymore, BUT I weigh 281 lbs! That's almost back to 300 lbs. and almost 100 lbs. gained back since February 2015. UGH! No wonder I'm easily wearing size 3X, 4X and 5X shirts and size 26 jeans. Ugh, I hate my fat, ugly, failure self!

Don and I have been fishing a lot and the other day I caught a 14.5" bass, so that was cool. We also catch a lot of panfish.

I guess that's all for now. Who knows when I'll be able to post again. I don't get enough cell phone signal at home to try to log in on my phone. Oh well, I won't die without the internet, and I won't die without making YouTube vlogs...but it WAS nice.

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I guess I'll take the opportunity to post this while I'm using Dan's wifi. Here's what's been going on and why you haven't seen me here in so long:

‎Tuesday, ‎July ‎25, ‎2017
Lol, I used to do this kind of crap when I couldn't afford internet way back when! We're still without internet. I don't know if by, "2 business days," Frontier meant today or tomorrow for the new modem to come by UPS. The UPS truck always come through really late and it's 3:44 p.m. right now, so who knows. It'll probably be tomorrow, though. We gave up on trying to go to Subway or Dan's to use the internet and upload the vlogs to YouTube because it takes way too long, so I'm just going to store vlogs up on my laptop and upload them when we get the net back. I just hope it's easy to set up this modem. I remember 2 years ago when this happened before the Frontier technician had to call the office to get it working. I hope the instructions come with it and it's not hard. I know I can't just plug it in and expect it to work.
Yesterday Don and I went to Alpena so I could change my last name all over the place. I could have gone to Petoskey to get a new Social Security card, but why do that when I had to go to Alpena anyway? I renewed my driver's license at the Secretary of State. The woman said since it expires this year, I had 2 choices, either completely renew it now or just change my name and have to come back in November and renew it. Why do that? So I got it all done right then and now I don't have to bother with it in November. I went to the Verizon Store and changed my name with them and changed my name with State Farm and to Besser Credit Union and changed my name there. We ended up spending about an hour and a half in the Social Security office. My part was fast and easy, but Don had to report that we're married for his disability checks and that took forever. The guy asked tons of questions and just typed and typed and typed and typed. He was having trouble with the computer, so he finally just let us go and said he'd finish it and just mail us the results.
We did find out that Don's ex-wife Ami tried to fuck him over this past November, though. Her kids have not lived with Don since they separated 7 years ago and their divorce was final 2 years ago. None of her kids are actually Don's biological kids and he never adopted any of them. YET, this past November, she called Social Security and falsely reported to them that all her kids live with Don! Why the fuck did she do that?! I think she was just trying to find some way to fuck us over. Becky said she thinks Ami was trying to get child support from Don, but she can't do that, either, because Don never legally adopted her kids. Trying to get child support from him would be the same as if she walked up to some stranger walking down the sidewalk somewhere and started screaming that he had to pay child support for her kids. It would work just as well. So Don made sure her name is completely removed from his file and now hopefully she won't have any power to call them and make false changes anymore. This asshole was supposed to have moved out of the area about 2 weeks ago, so I sure as hell hope she did!
Yesterday we also went geocaching some in Alpena. We found one at the library and then we went to Sportsman's Island to look for another one, but we couldn't find that one. That covered bridge they built going to Sportsman's Island is really nice. We also looked at the cool 3D fish mural a guy painted on the side of a building downtown. We saw for some stupid reason they built 2 more Dollar Generals on top of the 1 they already had. Who the hells needs 3 Dollar Generals? So now that makes 3 of those, 3 Subways and 3 McDonald's. WHY? Alpena is no big city. They do not need muiltiples of ANYTHING. Oh yeah, and 3 Shell gas stations, too.
We stopped at Walmart and got a few things and then we went to Lachine and gave Cathy 2 shirts and a solar dancing owl I found for her. We couldn't visit long because asshole Amy was on her way home from work and doesn't want Cathy to have visitors, especially not me, but it was nice to see her. She gave me some size 4 plugs for my ears so now all I have to worry about ordering later are the size 2's and then I will be all done stretching my ears.
On the way home from Alpena Tony called! That was a shock! I guess he's not mad anymore. He said Jasmine wanted to, "take a break," (I know what real life is, she broke up with him), and Walmart fired him for being late and he's living somewhere else away from Jasmine now. I don't see Petoskey working out for him, but it was nice to talk to him and hopefully there won't be anymore crap.
Last night after dinner I took my first walk with the new iPod Nano Mrs. Herring gave me. I have to walk every day now since the exercise bike broke and I don't have the money to buy another one. I don't know if I want another one. I had 2 wear out and break. My legs are sore from walking. I'm really out of practice and horribly out of shape! It's all my own fault.
Yesterday the new Charles Trippy poster came and that portion control thing came. I'm trying that out for the first time tonight at dinner. I never did find an 18x24 frame for the poster, so I took the older Charles Trippy poster out of its frame and put the new one in there and I put the older poster in the tube the new one came in and I'll wait until I do find a frame and I'll put the old poster back up somewhere else.
My phone is sorta kinda working today. Without wifi Verizon's signal is way too weak out here. In Onaway it's okay and in Cheboygan it's okay, but here at home and in Indian River it sucks. I also didn't get signal on Mackinac Island when we went last year, either. Verizon needs better coverage around here. Yesterday in Alpena I had full bars, so it's good there, but I'm not going back there.
I guess that's all for now. I'll just keep adding to this until I can finally get online and post it to Dreamwidth and Livejournal.
‎Friday, ‎July ‎28, ‎2017
Holy shit, have things sucked! I had to fight and fight and fight with Frontier and they lied to me again and again and again! They told me Sunday a new router was being UPS'ed. It was a lie. They told me Wednesday it was being sent, another lie. They told me a 3rd time yesterday one was being sent, yet another lie! Everytime I'd contact them again they'd look on the computer and no orders had ever been put in! Who were these fuckers who were lying to me every damn time?! I was getting more and more pissed off, obviously! Finally, after threatening to have my service shut off, I was emailed a UPS tracking number today that says the package has been shipped and is scheduled to be here Monday! Holy shit! That was beyond ridiculous! In the meantime, we've only been able to get 1 vlog up on YouTUbe because all the public wifi in Onaway is stupidly slow (all Frontier, no doubt) and so is the wifi at Dan's, which I know is Frontier. Frontier is a fucking joke! Of course, there's nothing else available at all. Excede is only 10gb a month. That won't work when we upload a video every night to YouTube and we watch Netflix. Netflix is our only source of TV, besides DVD's. We're not paying an expensive satellite bill, nothing comes in on the outside antenna anymore, and of course there's no cable available out here, so Netflix it is. Oh yeah, and when I talked to Frontier on Wednesday the asshole said he was putting a credit in for the days we haven't had service. It was supposed to be $8.00, but guess what, the bill came into my email yesterday and it's no lower than it ever is. Yet again another lie! What the fuck is wrong with these people?
I had to leave my laptop at Dan's for about 24 hours in order for the vlog that DID manage to get up to be uploaded. Ridiculous! Now that it's back home with me I can update this entry more like I am now and I can import the footage I've been filming and edit and export the next vlog. I have 1 vlog sitting ready to be uploaded and there will be one more getting exported tonight, and either 1 or 2 more completed before the modem actually gets here. I'm making them 2 day ones on purpose. My original plan was to just make one big multi-day vlog of all the days we were without internet, but it was only originally supposed to take 2 days for the modem to get here. It should have been here Tuesday or Wednesday, but oh no, now it won't be here until Monday, 8 days after the lightning strike, and we have to pay for those 8 serviceless days because they lied about a credit on the bill. I'm not calling again and fighting with these assholes again! Anyway, I went off track. If I tried to film, edit and export an 8 day vlog, it would suck to edit, suck to export, suck to upload, and nobody would want to sit through all that shit. Breaking it all up is a better idea.
Don was paid today and after he got home from work we went to town and went shopping. We got lots of food that was on sale and stocked the kitchen back up. Now we're watching this weird Silent Hill movie that Don has on DVD. He said he's taking the day off tomorrow to do some more repairs on the car. I don't know if that thing will ever be 100% fixed. Damn Dodges!
I've been working on cleaning the house and I started another one of those fox adult coloring book pages today. I just can't wait until we're back online. Damn! And Charles and Allie just started their cross country RV trip honeymoon and I'm missing all the vlogs about that. I can't play them on my phone because the Verizon signal is still almost non-existent out here and I'm lucky if I can even get anything to load on Facebook, don't even think about videos!
Bye for now.
‎Monday, ‎July ‎31, ‎2017
The modem finally came by UPS this doesn't work. I mean, the modem does, but the internet doesn't. Ugh! I called Frontier and they did a test from their computer and said there's a, "loss of signal," so now we have to wait until the 3rd for a technician to come out. *sigh* Apparently it's just like 2 years ago and the phone lines themselves were fried by the lightning, too. She said the computer also showed problems with all the neighbors here, too. So why didn't they check that kind of shit when I first contacted them and send a tech right away instead of pissing around for 8 days? Assholes! So now here we still sit with nothing. IF the guy gets it going on the 3rd that will be 11 days with no service that I am still paying for because they lied about putting a credit on my bill for the days with no service. I have to learn to stop getting my hopes up about things because I was really looking forward to being able to get back online today and be able to get the vlogs up and shit like that. Blah!
Yesterday we went to Cheboygan and went fishing with Becky and Troy again. We didn't catch anything, but we did end up with a ticket for not having a state park sticker when we were fishing at the Cheboygan dam after Becky and Troy went home. Grrrrrrr! They never enforce that stupid sign there. Don and I have been going there together for 2 years and he's gone there for many, many years before we got together and never got a ticket. Apparently yesterday was Douchebag DNR Officer Day and we were in the wrong place at the wrong time. So we have to mail in $11.00 and they will mail us the permit. If we don't, I go to jail because the car is in my name. Well, after this we can park wherever we want and they can go fuck themselves!
Today we got the only gift off our Amazon wedding registry. At least somebody got us something, even if it WAS John Burke, lol! I don't know if he feels guilty for all the money he used me for for 6 years or he just likes to hear his name mentioned in the vlogs (most likely the latter, lol). He also sent stuff to Press Record a couple months ago, another vlogging couple who moved from Ohio to Alpena. It's cool, though, I love getting stuff. It's a nice set of rainbow-colored knives from Cuisinart that I put on our registry. I've wanted those colored knives since I first started seeing them about 10 years ago in the Alpena K-Mart.
I ran out of my seizure pills awhile back and my appointmenr isn't until Wednesday, so I hope I make it until then with no seizures. I'm having withdrawals, which feels like shit. Oh well, hopefully it'll be okay. Luckily I don't have to work with these withdrawal symptoms and high seizure risk.
Speaking of seizures, Ma called this morning and yesterday Biskit had a grand maul seizure, the poor old guy. They don't know what's wrong, but if it happens again they'll take him to the vet. He's 12 now, so who knows what might be wrong. Could even be a brain tumor. :(
Saturday Don got one of the parts replaced on the car and now it doesn't grind when he turns the wheel anymore, but he had to use the grinder for some of the work and he got metal shavings in his eyes and now his left eye is in bad shape. I know it'll heal, but it looks like he has pink eye and he had to come home from work early today because he can barely see.
I'm almost done with that fox adult coloring book page. I always get way too carried away and all OCD and everything has to be artistically perfect, lol.
Later Don is making meatloaf for dinner and we're just relaxing. It's really hot outside just like yesterday. At least we have fans, even though we'll never have air conditioning.

August 2, 2017, Wednesday:

And now I'm here at Dan's with Don while he works trying to catch some stuff up. There's no sense trying to upload a vlog right now because that takes 11 hours here on Dan's Frontier internet and there are 4 or 5 of them stacked up waiting to be uploaded so far. Tomorrow the Frontier tech is supposed to show up and fix the problem and he better! He better be able to fix it! I'm so sick of paying Frontier for absolutely nothing!

Last night Don ripped all the carpet and padding out of the living room and I cleaned everything before we put it all back. Now we don't have carpet, but thankfully Eevee's disgusting mess is gone. I wanted that gone because it would have been really embarrassing to have the Frontier guy see and smell that!

I have a doctor's appt. at 2:45 and then I'm going to Rogers City to see Ma at Travis'. I hope Don can come with me. There isn't much work here for him to do today.



Jul. 23rd, 2017 05:46 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Default)
I finally got through to Frontier and they're having a new modem sent by UPS instead of waiting 2 weeks to send a technician. That's good, but meanwhile, we've given up on Subway and we're at Dan's now trying to use his and it's just as slow. Everybody in Onaway runs on Frontier and it sucks so bad!

tkdw_vlogs2017: (Sad)
We got up today when it started thunderstorming. I had barely been out in the kitchen when I heard a loud snap, then loud thunder and I turned around the Frontier modem/router lights were all dark. DAMMIT! AGAIN! This means we will be without internet for at least 2 weeks, maybe more. When this happened 2 years ago they didn't care at all, didn't bother to show up for 2 weeks. All we need is them to come and trade out the fried modem for a working one. If they had an office like Charter does we could simply just go there and made the trade, but they have no office. So we're sitting in Subway, where their internet absolutely SUCKS, and the vlog is uploading at approximately 1% every 5 to 10 minutes. I don't even know if it will be uploaded before they close at 9. I'm also trying to have a live chat with Frontier to get a new modem, but it started at 21 people ahead of me and now it's at 16 and it's going incredibly slow. Plus, they'll just treat me like I'm an idiot. Also, my phone won't work at home without wifi, not even calls or texts, because Verizon also sucks. Wow, what a way to wreck your day!

tkdw_vlogs2017: (Smile)
Thursday we went back up to Cheboygan to the dam to do some more fishing after dinner. It was my idea this time. I just wanted to get out and do something and it was a nice warm night, no thunderstorms this time. I didn't catch anything, but Don got a couple small fish. It was just really nice to be outside and as I was standing at the water with my pole I was thinking about how it was so nice to be there instead of at work dealing with endless assholes, which is where I was originally supposed to be before I quit.

Yesterday Don worked and I stayed home. One of our YouTube subscribers, who lives in the Detroit area, but has a cabin up here, Wil Tomei and his wife Becky, stopped by Dan's house to meet Don. That wasn't fair, I didn't get to talk to him, lol! Actually, if the rain doesn't cancel it out (it's just barely sprinkling now), Don and I are going to the races at the Onaway Speedway tonight and so is Wil, so we're supposed to meet up there. That will be cool. Wil and Becky are the ones who shared their Netflix account with us while we were trying to pay the property off and he ordered us some SD card adapters off Amazon, too. He's been on our personal Facebooks for a long while now. It's funny how YouTube can actually make you real life friends.

Back when Lexi was still coming here she kept saying she wanted an iPod, so I gave her my Nano. I thought I could use my iPhone the same way I could use an iPod, but I cannot. She just instantly lost it as soon as she got it home, so I should have never given it to her. Flash forward to now, I want to be able to listen to music when I take walks, but since I dropped my iPhone data plan down from 4gb to 2gb, I don't want to use up all the data doing that. So I advertised on Facebook asking if anybody had an old iPod, any version, didn't matter how old, as long as it worked and had its cord, that they'd be willing to sell for cheap. Well, Mrs. Herring, my old high school English teacher from Onaway, replied and said she has a brand new Nano she won as a prize from something that she has no idea how to use and no desire to use, that she'll give me for free! That's really nice of her! We arranged for her to drop it off to Don at Dan's today, so that's something I'm looking forward to.

Otherwise not a whole lot is going on. We went food shopping in Onaway last night after Don got home from work. Yesterday was my final payday and I paid our cell phone bill and Frontier (internet). Don told me to hold on to the rest of the money. I do know I need to use some of it for gas and some of it to pay for a new driver's license. They don't just change the name on your driver's license for free like they do the address.

Speaking of, as long as Don doesn't have to work, we need to go to Alpena Monday. I have to go to the Social Security office and file for a new Social Security card. I have to go to State Farm and have my name changed on the car insurance, and to Besser Credit Union and have my name changed there. I also have to go to the Verizon Store and have my name changed with them for the cell phones. I also have to change everything with DHS, but I have to do that in Cheboygan County. I'm picking Alpena for the Social Security office over Petoskey because the traffic SUCKS in Petoskey in the summer! Plus, I have all those other places in Alpena I have to go to, so I might as well do it all in one trip. We need to stop by Cathy's to give her 2 shirts, plus a solar dancing owl I found her at Family Dollar yesterday. Crabass Amy won't be there, so I'm glad.

I guess that's all for now. I'm just sitting here wondering why there's so much traffic out on this barren dirt road today, lol.



Jul. 19th, 2017 01:12 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Really Happy)
We went up to Cheboygan yesterday and finally got our fishing licenses from Walmart. Then we went to Becky and Troy's and we all ended up going fishing at the Cheboygan dam. I caught a bullhead and a perch, and then Don caught this. WOW!

We didn't know what it was, but 2 people walking by said it's a bowfin, and another guy later confirmed it. Dogfish is another name, and it has other names, too, but I'm not going to look them back up. It was 23 & 3/4 inches long and 7 lbs. Don was pretty proud of that one! It's now cleaned and in the freezer.

Right after we decided to stop fishing a great big thunderstorm came in, so we stopped just in time. It was a really nice day, though.

When we got home we had a package. I knew it would be there because this woman named Joyce Lord messaged me on Instagram asking if I got it yet. She's a YouTube subscriber and sent it. It was a big box of all pretty well new clothes, so that was really nice of her! I don't know who she actually is, though. The address on the box is New York state. She's not on my Facebook like some of our subscribers. I don't know how she got our home address. I'll give it to people who ask, but nobody's asked lately. Google, I suppose, lol. But it's okay, because she did something really nice and wasn't a creeper. Now I have a bunch of clothes I can wear until I re-lose the weight and then I can give it all to Cathy.

Now today Don is at work and I'm relaxing and doing laundry. I need to do the dishes and dust and vacuum, too. It's hot right now, but later in the evening when it cools down I want to take a walk. Yeah, our wedding photos are really nice, but good God, have I ever become a cow again! Ugh! Time to fix that now that I'm no longer working in a place where I'm constantly surrounded by garbage food. That's where I did 95% of my binge eating. I gained 30 lbs. just over this past winter alone, on top of everything else I gained back. I've gained back almost 100 lbs! :(

I have definitely realized how useful to US our YouTube vlog channel is. If I didn't know before, I sure do now. First and foremost it's a video diary for US, not anybody else. If other people watch it, great, but it serves US the best. I keep rewatching the part of our wedding vlog where Don chokes up during the vows because I think it's incredibly romantic that he did that. It shows without a doubt that he loves me with all his soul, and that has never happened in any of my past relationships. To be honest, I don't think any of those guys could have really cared if I was dead or alive. Don isn't like that. He honestly loves me with all he has and I feel the same way about him. He was never been truly loved before, either. He had 2 major exes, Delores Deloy and Ami Root. Both were complete bitches who treated him like shit. Luckily he didn't marry Delores, but she was so abusive to him he had to sleep in his car after work every night because he didn't want to go anywhere near her. And of course, we all know Ami was a bitch to him and cheated like crazy. He dated a little bit here and there, but he said they all sucked, too. So for both of us this is our first real true loving relationship. And it's our last because I never see us divorcing. We don't even argue. It's been months since we did have any kind of argument and the ones we did have were based on my mental unhealthiness from all the abuse I received my whole life. I kept expected abuse when there wasn't going to be any just because that's what I'm used to. It took me a while to heal. I can't say I'm 100% healed, but I'm a whole lot better. Same with Don. He expected me to be like Ami and Delores and it took awhile for him to shake that idea, too. But anyway, I veered off the subject. YouTube is a great way to document our lives for US, because things like our wedding, yeah we would have had pictures and we would have had memories in our heads, but now we have actual footage we can watch whenever we want. Same with all the other videos. A lot of YouTubers are only about attracting fans and making money (most people are monetized, but of course, we can't be.) and they've forgotten all about themselves.

Speaking of vlogs, now that I'm not working they can be daily again like they originally started out as. It had gotten to the point where I couldn't really vlog on the days I worked because I didn't have time and we never went anywhere or did anything, so they had become multi-day ones, some of them as long as 5 days. Now, for the people who ARE subbed to us (and us too) the videos can be a lot better.

Here's yesterday's. You can see Don catch that big fish. :)

tkdw_vlogs2017: (love)
Here's the wedding vlog! I wasn't sure if the sound was good enough during the ceremony. I cranked the volume of that clip all the way up, but I couldn't really listen to it during editing because my laptop can't handle Filmora Wondershare and the high resolution clips from my camera very well, so it doesn't play smooth enough for me to listen to it all while I'm editing. However, now that's it up on YouTube I see the sound is good enough to catch Don choking up during the vows. That's a good way to remember it because it's really special to me. That means he really, really loves me. He kids around a lot, but when it comes right down to it, there's no doubt he loves me with all his heart, and I feel the same way about him!


Jul. 17th, 2017 09:15 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (love)
We are married! Don had to go pick up some windows for the house from a seller on one of the Facebook Buy, Sell, Trade groups this morning, but then we got ready and went up to Cheboygan to get married. We stopped at Walmart to try to buy a frame for the new Charles Trippy poster I ordered, but they don't sell the right size anymore. Grrrrrrr!!! We saw Ma and Dad there. They were coming up to come to our wedding. My shoes were really hurting me, so I had Don cut them with a knife and then they were fine. They were too tight across the top of my feet. They were only 5 something, so it's no big deal. The cuts are small and look like they belong there. Then we all met at the courthouse. While we were waiting in the car for Ma and Dad to come down from Walmart we saw Christine come out of the courthouse with her lawyer. I didn't bug her, though, because she was busy talking to him.

So we went in and the secretary at Judge Butts' (yes, that's really his name, lol!) office asked us if we wanted to do it outside and we said yes. They have an arch thing outside to do it at. Ma took photos and shot video for the vlog. The camera can do both at the same time. Her and Dad were also our witnesses. Don cried during the ceremony, which surprised me, but that also lets me know he definitely loves me!

After the ceremony we all went to the park past Speedway to meet up with the girl who was going to take photos of us with my good camera. We all just relaxed on a picnic table in the shade until she got there. She was a really nice girl and did a good job and brought flowers for us to use in the photos. Even though she doesn't know us, she gave us a gift, a bottle with a cork top. She said we could put sand in it since we were at the beach to remember the day, so after the photos were taken and Ma and Dad left Don did indeed fill it with sand. It looks pretty cool. That was really nice of her!

Cathy called me on Facebook video chat while Don was getting the sand. She couldn't come because she had to work and then had to watch Sarah (as always), but that was okay. Then we stopped at Speedway and I got some iced coffee and a little lunch, and then we went back to Walmart and got a small carrot cake and some ice cream.

We came home and Don grilled pork steaks and chicken and we had a nice dinner and then had dessert. We put that skeleton cake topper on the cake that one of our YouTube subscribers got for us.

We just got back from town. We got a little bit to drink to celebrate, and we've just been relaxing and watching movies.

We're happy to be married! I'm still surprised it's really true! I thought for so long he would never want to get married.

Here's all the photos:



Jul. 16th, 2017 01:49 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Happy2)
So Thursday we got up really early to pick up our marriage license and to meet a guy outside the Cheboygan courthouse to buy that tattoo ink. Don needed to work at Dan's, so we left here at 7:26 a.m. to get up there right when the courthouse opened at 8. I think we were the first people in there. Then I took Don to work and came home and took a nap, but it didn't matter because I was still super tired at work. Oh well.

So tomorrow we get married! Yay! Don has to meet up with some people at 8 a.m. to buy 3 windows off the Facebook Onaway Buy Sell Trade group, though. Then we get married at 2:30. Ma and Dad are going to come, but I don't think anybody else is. Then we are meeting up with a girl to take photos of us at the beach. I hope it doesn't rain. It's not supposed to.

Things are going to shit fast at work. First they accused Brad of stealing a whole package of lotto tickets, then found out it was just delivered to to the wrong store. Now they've accused him of stealing $100.00. Do they not like him or something? And Christine went to jail for giving somebody methadone. She denies it, but I don't know what to think since she did mention this winter something about her friend wanting her to fill her prescription and give it to her to get high. She said she didn't do it, but maybe she did. Well anyway, she got out on bail and now has lots of court. But in the meantime, Blarney Castle has suspended her from work and is investigating what's going on. She will most likely be fired since it's drug related. So they have Amy, the new girl, working all her own hours and all of Christine's hours, too. We're not supposed to get more than 28 hours a week, but Amy has well over 40. This week Rich has been working his own shifts AND then going up to the little store to close for Christine. And then, once summer hit, I was too busy to go around the whole store and check for updates. BUT I am NOT the only person who works there. There are usually 2 people working during the day. One of them could check. But no, apparently everybody thinks it's ONLY MY job to do that. I had a woman come up to me last night complaining that all the milk expired on July 5th! That's 10 days expired! WTF? So I said fuck it and left it right where it is. Let's see just how old it gets! That's not JUST MY job! I'm not the only one working there. All the daytime people think everything is up to the closers except running register and making coffee (and sometimes they don't even make coffee and I get there and it's gone, like last night!). I'm sick of it. I will be so glad when this is all over with!

Well, Don just said that now that we have all the little extra bills paid (my back taxes, both phones paid off, paying Dad back) that after tonight I don't have to go back anymore! Thank God for that! I don't want to go to jail! Now that DeLynn keeps coming over from Alpena she's throwing accusations at people about stealing. I don't want to be next! I'd rather not even go tonight, but Don said I should, so one more time and that's enough.

Well, time to take a shower and go deal with that crap one last time.


5 Days

Jul. 12th, 2017 12:44 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Happy2)
5 days until we get married and I can start changing my name on everything to Wilton! I guess we have to go to Alpena to change my social security card because Don said when he tried to go to the one in Petoskey one time for something they chewed him out and told him he was at the wrong one and the one for people in this area is in Alpena. So fine, we'll pick one of my days off and vlog, too. I want to vlog that big 3D fish mural somebody painted downtown since I moved away, and find that geocache on Sportman's Island, and walk on the Pier at Bayview Park like I always used to. That should make for a nice vlog and at least we did more than just go to the social security office and leave. I'll have to have my driver's license changed and change my name at work and at the credit union (I guess while we're in Alpena I'll also go show our marriage license to Besser Credit Union and have them change my last name on their computer). I have a lot of places to change my name on the internet, too. I'm waiting until we're officially married to change it on Facebook. I don't play that dumb game where women change their last name to their boyfriend's last name when they're not even married, like Jasmine did with Tony, and like Ellen Barres did with Bryan VanSumeren. I think it's cheesy and stupid. You're not married, so don't lie and say you are! I could have been a dickhead and had my last name as Wilton on my Facebook ever since we got together on December 11th, 2014, but that's so stupid and babyish!

Don finally went back to work for Dan yesterday, so that'll help us out, especially after August 7th. As long as people keep ordering those spades Don will have the work. Yesterday he asked me to go to work with him. I guess he likes my company, lol. He just shipped some spades out at the UPS office in the Onaway Embroidery Shop and then cut some pipe. I just sat there drinking mint tea and eating Combos and watched him.

Last night we watched Moana on Netflix. That was really good! I know I'm an adult and I shouldn't like what Don calls, "cartoons," but I do! I always wanted to be an animator, and even though it didn't work out, I like watching really good animation, both traditional and computer generated. I hate that really low quality crap from the 80's, though. As an artist all I can see in that crap is their sloppiness. I like the old My Little Pony cartoons, but it really bothers me when they put the wrong dialog on the wrong pony! It's like, "be careful people!" LOL! I know the series and movie were only put out to sell the toys, but that doesn't mean they didn't need to care. They might have sold more ponies if the animation had been better quality. They don't make mistakes like that in MLP-FIM and that's just meant to sell the toys, too, so apparently people had a different mindset in the 80's than they do now.

I need to dye my hair today. It's the only day I can do it thanks to work. I hired a photographer from Cheboygan to meet up with us after we get married at the courthouse and use my camera to take some nice photos for $20.00 and I don't want gray showing. I just bought my own color this time, dark brown. I'm done trying to change the color because it never stays in.

I'm selling that tattoo ink I bought off Amazon. I was going to have Donny Root finish the dragon tattoo and I didn't think he had any colored ink because everything on his Facebook is black and white. Then I decided to give Nate Raymond another chance, but he said he wouldn't use the ink. (Asshole) Then I kept seeing more and more shitty tattoos Nate was doing show up on his Facebook and I said, "nope!" I'm going to have Ninja Monkey Tattoo in Cheboygan do it, even if I have to wait until I get my tax return. All the guys there do GREAT work. I just need to go there and get an estimate to know what cost I'm looking at. So I don't need this ink. Today a guy in Cheboygan said he'll buy it and we're going to meet at the courthouse tomorrow morning when Don and I go to get the marriage license.

My plan for that since Don is working again is for us to get up early, go up there and get the license, then I'll drop Don off at Dan's and I'll come home and then I'll go to work when it's time. I work at 4:15 so we need to go to Cheboygan early. The clerk's office wants us to make sure there are no mistakes on the license. Then we get married Monday at 2:30. Yay!

Don doesn't want to tell Dan he's getting married because when Dan got married to Rose many years ago Don was supposed to be the best man, but some other guy started whining so Dan let that guy do it instead. Geez, sibling rivalry, lol. I'm sure Dan will find out by word of mouth, and if not, he's sure to wonder why Don is suddenly wearing a wedding ring, lol.

My wisdom tooth holes on the left are healing really well. It's only been a week, but they seem to healing faster then the right side did. The holes are already almost closed up. Good!

So Monday when we were just getting into Cheboygan we saw Christine just leaving it. I texted her and said I saw her. A few minutes later she sent me a weird text saying she had been arrested that morning on a charge the cops, "made up just for her," and that she didn't know what was going on. Come on now! You know what's going on and you know cops don't have the time or the desire to make special charges up for people. She said that same shit when her boyfriend got arrested, too. She did something, probably her and Tommy together, and doesn't want to be honest. If she didn't want me to know, she didn't have to say ANYTHING. She could have said she was shopping before work or something. Why lie? It pisses me off! She claims to be my friend and lies to me. That's bullshit!

My shirt from TeeTurtle finally came. The stupid mailman marked it as delivered on Monday and didn't bother to deliver it until yesterday. Now why the fuck? Don't mark something as delivered until it actually IS! Here I was freaking out thinking he gave the package to who the hell knows who and who the hell knows where!
But anyway, I like the picture on the shirt (that's why I ordered it, lol), but I ordered it in 3X and it's HUGE! I've gained back so much weight that my mind is telling me 3X is what I need again, but maybe I don't. Oh well, lol. I'll find out after I dye my hair and take a shower because I'm going to put it on.

I guess that's all for now. I'm doing laundry today and I need to get my hair dyed and take that shower, lol.


So Far...

Jul. 10th, 2017 09:07 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Hell yeah)
So far I've knocked $65 off my Verizon Wireless bill. First I paid off my iPhone, which will take almost $16.00 off the bill. Then I switched to what they call, "The New Verizon Plan." All the parts of the bill are lower than they were on whatever plan I was on before, and I dropped it from 4gb down to 2. I never used more than half of the 4gb, so why pay for all that? Friday I will pay off Don's phone, which will take another $3.74 off the bill a month. So that's one big bill knocked way down. Don gave me the money to pay off my back taxes, so that's gone now, too. Next will be paying Dad back that $157.00 I still owe him from October 2014 when he bought me new tires for the LeSabre. I should have paid that off years ago. Then there's the normal bills like car insurance, Frontier and the phone bill one more time, but it will be lower. Don said we will find lower car insurance.

I gave notice at work. I gave them a 1 month notice, which is double what I'm required to give, so they shouldn't be pissed off. I put down August 7th as my last day, but that's a Monday, so if my schedule stays the same as it has been for many months now, my last day will probably be the 6th. Meanwhile, the bullshit from the customers continues. Last night a guy was pissed at me because his card wouldn't slide. We are NOT allowed to type them in by hand anymore. I told him that, and I was never rude through any of it, and that pissed him off. Then he started chewing me out for not having a chip reader installed. I am NOT the owner, those kinds of things are NOT up to me. I told him we're getting the chip reader on July 19th and he snapped, "Well, it's little too late now!!" Fuck you dude, seriously! That horrible attitude just for beer and cigarettes! He tried 3 cards before one would work and I ended up stopping talking to him by the end, I didn't even say, "have a good night," because he was being such a dick to me. I knew he could and probably would use anything I said against me to call corporate and turn me in, so I said nothing. I'm just sick of shit like that!

Today Don and I went to Cheboygan to get our marriage license. We had to stop at Walmart first so we could grab Don some new shoes. His boots were falling apart, plus they're steel-toed and he can't get through security at the courthouse with them on. When he went to pay off the property they made him go to the police station next door to be frisked before they'd let him in because of his boots. Dumb. You can't even take your car keys in there. You have to leave them in your car. They added this garbage just recently.

Anyway, we ran into Uncle Maylon outside Walmart and talked to him for awhile. He welcomed Don into the family. Then we went in and found Don some shoes and then went to the courthouse.

After we got the license application filled out and paid the $20.00 (we can pick the license up on Thursday), we went down the hall and made the appointment to be married at the courthouse. It will be Monday the 17th at 2:30, so 1 more week left and then we will be married! Woo hoo!

Then we went back to Walmart and I bought black flat dress shoes to wear with my yellow sundress and we found Don a nice black button-down shirt and a cool looking red tie. He has a pair of black khakis, so we should both look pretty nice. I'm going to try to fix my hair different and hope it doesn't get all messed up before we get up there, lol. I'll use my hair straighter as a curling iron. I saw something on Facebook on how to do it and the results looked nice. If that doesn't work right I'll just straighten it like normal.

I put up an ad on the Facebook Buy Sell Trade groups when we got home looking for someone who can use my camera to take a few nice photos of us at the park on Lake Huron in Cheboygan afterward. I can't hold the camera myself unless I want a bunch of stupid looking selfies, lol. Becky and Troy MIGHT be there, but there's no way they'll want to mess with my camera, especially Becky. She says she never wants to learn anything new. A girl in Cheboygan answered and we set up to meet at the park around 3 that day and for $20 she'll use my camera and take some nice photos. She's a photographer. We should get some nice pictures out of it and I think it's a great deal. Somebody else could have charged a whole lot more.

Cathy said she can't come, that she has to work and then watch Sarah (as always), and I texted Ma and she said she has to ask Dad if he wants to go. Tony still hates me and has no driver's license or car anyway, so he won't be there. I announced it on Facebook, but I can't imagine anybody else coming. Oh well, that's okay, though. We'll still have a great day. I think Don will look really sexy in those clothes!

We also got some other things from Walmart we needed, like hair dye, tampons, Pantene shampoo and conditioner, some dinner rolls that were on sale, and chicken and beef bullion cubes. After that we went to Burger King and got a couple things for lunch and then came home.

Now the bad news is that I ordered a shirt from TeeTurtle. I got a notification while we were in Cheboygan saying it was delivered today at 3:02...but it was NOT. It is nowhere to be found. It's not at any of the neighbors' houses, either. Don went all over and checked. So I'm really pissed. I checked the tracking number on and it said the same thing, too. Ugh! Who the hell did the dumbass mailman give it to? So I'm out $25.00. I wrote to TeeTurtle and asked them if they ended up with it back, "return to sender," would they send it back to me again? Ugh, what crap!

One side of the mailbox didn't have anything on it, so we went to Family Dollar and got white paint and clear packing tape. I painted "Wilton 5900 Mero" in big letters and Don covered it in packing tape to make it waterproof. Last week UPS gave one of our packages to the neighbor, also. So if USPS, UPS and FedEx can't see that, then I don't know what the fuck.

Now Don is making us homemade mac and cheese with smoked sausage in it for dinner and we're just relaxing.



Jul. 7th, 2017 01:29 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (What the hell)
In about a month I'm quitting Blarney Castle. The customers are way too verbally abusive and I can't take it anymore. Last night I made a mistake. I'm human, I make mistakes just like everybody else. At closing time there was 1 pump left pumping. I got confused and thought they were paying with a card at the pump, so I closed the store and I was going to wait until they were done to shut the pumps off. That's how it always goes, night after night. I went back to shut off the lights and when I came back somebody was pounding on the door. Now that's happened before and Dar said ignore those people and don't reopen the store, so that's what I did. I thought they just wanted beer like people always do because once we close they can't get beer in Indian River anymore because Shell across the road doesn't sell it. I went over the turn the coffee pots back on and they kept pounding. So I went over to try to tell them we close at 11 and they were yelling through the glass that they had gas to pay for. Shit! So I unlocked the door and it was one guy who's a regular and his wife and 2 kids. I said since we were closed that he could come in and pay for the gas, but that I couldn't let everybody in (that's policy). Well, the woman flipped the fuck out and insisted that she and her kids come in and buy a bunch of shit, so I let them all in. What the fuck ever. She then waited until the guy went in the bathroom, obviously not wanting him to hear her, and proceeded to chew me right the fuck out. I tried apologizing, but that wasn't good enough for her. She made it perfectly clear that I'm a no good fucking idiot and that the only way to make it okay was to give them the gas for free. She kept saying that since I locked the door, they didn't have to pay for it. I just said fuck it and deleted the gas off their sale. The guy came out and wanted to pay for the gas and I told him no because she wouldn't stop freaking out on me. He stormed out all pissed off, but hey, his nasty bitch got what she wanted. So I left Rich a note saying what happened and that I will be paying the $46.24 for their gas when I go in to work today at 5. I had to wait until today because it's payday and I had no money last night. *sigh* I'm just so absolutely sick of being verbally abused. DeLynn has been calling and doing it, too. So many customers, most of them local regulars, have been treating me like I'm a no good piece of shit just because I'm a cashier, like I'm 5000 levels below them, like I'm not a worthy human being, and like I'm their no good slave, just like at McDonald's. I can't hand it anymore. I don't deserve to be made to feel like a bad person just because I work in customer service.

So Don surprised me and said I can stick it out for another month, we get things paid off, like the $157.00 I owe dad, and get our cell phones paid off, and then I can quit and take a year or 2 off. Wow! That's different!

There are things I need to focus on anyway, like re-losing all this weight. I'm almost back to 300 lbs! Plus, a gas station is a bad place to be with my uncontrollable binge eating. I eat myself sick there every night!

I will never ever EVER work in customer service again. Even if I have to go be a dishwasher at a restaurant, I want to be hidden from all the horrible, hateful, heartless assholes. Almost every person who walks through the doors of that gas station automatically hates my guts and wants me dead JUST because I'm a cashier and they think they are all SO MUCH BETTER than me. I mentally cannot take it anymore. I do not have a thick skin. I take everything straight to heart. It's part of my depression and lack of self esteem. So working with the public is only making me sicker.

I slept like shit last night, having nightmares over and over about the things going on at work. Ugh!

tkdw_vlogs2017: (Happy)
Yesterday Don and I went to the parade in Onaway. We ran into Ma, Travis, Amber, Auren and Mason and watched it with them. It was fun, it always is. Moran Iron Works unveiled a big iron sturgeon sculpture this year. (Onaway is The Sturgeon Capitol of the World). I think it looks really cool and it's the best thing Tom Moran has made yet. (I'll come back and add photos after the vlog is done uploading, which is taking FOREVER!) After the parade we ran into Don's brother Dave and his wife Nikki, Uncle Jack and Aunt Lois, and my cousins Evah and Shyanne. After Ma and Travis and everybody left to go to the lake we went to the pie and ice cream social at the Methodist Church where they give out free pie and ice cream and Grandpa Schoolcraft and his girlfriend Mavis were there and so were Aunt Marge and Uncle Glenn, so it was nice to see family. Then Don and I went to the front yard of the courthouse where there were a lot of booths with stuff for sale. Don got me some lilac scented body spray and a blueberry candle, both handmade, from the booth his friend Melissa was running. When we went into the courthouse to see the rest of the vendors' booths we ran into Grandpa and Mavis again. Then we came home and Don made brats, chicken, polish sausage, hot dogs and burgers on the grill and we had chips, baked beans and potato salad. It was all really good! Then later we had ice cream for dessert. We went to see the fireworks and then came home for the night. We watched old episodes of Trailer Park Boys all day. It was a really fun day and I'm glad I had the day off!

Now today we just got back from Atlanta where I had my other 2 wisdom teeth pulled. That wasn't so great, but at least it's over now. We also got gas, went to the Atlanta Family Dollar, and into Freddie's Market where we got some of things they have ridiculously on sale. It's too bad we don't live closer to that store because their sales are always just plain crazy.

Now we're home and doing laundry and I'm still numb and still have gauze in my mouth. The novocaine makes me spacey and tired. I'm glad Don didn't have to work today so he could drive me home. I didn't like driving home feeling this way last time. Unfortunately I go right back to work tomorrow. I bought more Ibuprofen to get me through.

Well, that's about all for now. Bye.
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