Jun. 7th, 2017 06:19 pm
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No, he doesn't want to. I should have known better.


Jun. 6th, 2017 11:29 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Thoughtful)
Today Becky and Troy came over and Becky ended up telling Don I'm NOT going to be Ami #2 if he marries me and that he SHOULD marry me. She said she'd even pay for the marriage license from the courthouse ($20). Don just kept laughing and cracking jokes, but didn't say no, so MAYBE he'll marry me someday. We would just have it done at the courthouse because we'll never have money for a huge wedding. I feel like he doesn't want to marry me because of what Ami did to him and it pisses me off because here I am paying for what SHE did and she's off scott-free. Grrrr! Don is definitely the one I want to marry. He IS the one, I don't want anybody else, so why shouldn't we get married? But we'll see; who knows?

Today Don worked for a little while and then came home and put his big stereo system back in the Stratus where it was before he had to park the car in 2013. Now that the car is back on the road he was able to put it back. It's all bassy now.

Today Cathy and Tony turned 20. Of course, Tony still hates me and I don't even have an address for him, so I didn't say anything to him or try to send him anything, but I told Cathy happy birthday and I ordered her present off Amazon awhile back. I hope it won't take too long for it to actually be delivered to her.

Don's birthday is the 16th, so I said something about it in our last YouTube vlog and directed anybody who wants to get him anything to our Amazon wishlist. I added some things to it just for Don. He doesn't know what I added. Today John Burke got him one of the items, a cool Walking Dead-themed jack knife I put on the list. I know, it's JOHN, but oh well. I still look at it this way, he took SO MUCH of my money for those 6 years. If he feels like getting us presents and donating money to help us with our channel, I'm not going to say no. So Don will be getting that stepping stone with a deer on it I got him from work and that jack knife for his birthday so far.

Yesterday I went to the the doctor and had a biopsy. He removed that stupid little growth on my arm to see if it's cancer. He doesn't think it is, but wants to make sure. He put a yucky little hole in my arm. I have to keep it covered and keep triple antibiotic ointment on it for at least 2 weeks. No more work on the tattoo until that's healed. My doctor said that then the tattoo can go right over it to help hide the scar. Hopefully the stupid thing doesn't grow back again. He cut in pretty deep so I think it might all be gone.

After the doctor's appointment I went to Starbucks in Indian River and had lunch, an iced coffee and a veggie gyro. Then I looked around in the Northstar Gardens giftshop part of the building and then went next door to Ken's Market and found sandwich stuff on sale. Then I came home and went and got Don and we went and picked up free food in Onaway and came home.

Tomorrow Don doesn't have to work and he wants to fix on the Stratus some more. Even though it's driveable, it's not done yet. I will do laundry and vacuum and stuff. Then it's back to work Thursday as always.



Jun. 5th, 2017 11:08 am
tkdw_vlogs2017: (What the hell)
This morning I got up and got ready for the day and when I was getting dressed I suddenly got VERY dizzy and ended up on my left knee on the floor. I felt like I was suddenly being thrown to the left. It was very weird. Hopefully it's nothing, but was definitely unexpected.

I had to take Don to work so I could have the car for my doctor's appointment at 1. They're going to cut that little thing off my right arm and see if it's cancer. The doctor said he doesn't think it is, but he wants to make sure.

Then I want to go to Indian River to the Starbucks and have lunch. I'll get the veggie gyro and an iced coffee and eat it outside by the fountain and not have to worry about rushing to work. I tried the chicken gyro yesterday, but I like the veggie one better. Then I'll go to Ken's Market and see if there's anything on sale. Then I'll come home and wait for Don to text me to say he needs to be picked up.

As for Dan, things are getting really fucked up. First off, he never sent out any of the spades that have been ordered in the past week, so that will lead to some pissed off customers. Don has to do it now. Also, he took Don's pay that he was supposed to get Friday and spent it on a guitar amp for himself and made Don wait to get paid. Now that's some real bullshit! Yeah, it may be under the table, but it's not professional at all! That would be like if Shawn Gray, the owner of Blarney Castle, took our paychecks and bought himself something personal and said, "Oh, now you have to wait." Things don't work that way. Dan is so unprofessional! Don said he's started many businesses and failed at them over the years. The only reason this one is still going is because DON is running it by himself. He definitely deserves more pay than he gets. Even Dan admitted that if it wasn't for Don, the business would have failed a long time ago. Don deserves a raise!

I'm tried. I don't like getting up at 9 after I close at work. Blah. But I needed to so Don could get to work and I could still get to the doctor.

I'm hoping Nate can finish the tattoo during this stretch of days off, but I don't know.

I just found out our bikes are all fucked up from being left outside all winter. That pisses me off. I hope I don't have to buy new ones, which I can't right now. I asked Don many times to move them into the shed. I guess I have to make sure if I want something done, I do it.



Jun. 2nd, 2017 02:22 pm
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"Nate Raymond-Well I'm glad you like it. I wanted to do it my way but it's your tat so I did it how you wanted it."

This mentality needs to stop. He made that Facebook comment on a picture of somebody's else's tattoo he recently did. He keeps saying he's the artist and it all needs to be HIS way. NO! His PAYING CUSTOMERS call the shots. They want their tattoos they want their tattoos. THEY are the ones who have to live with them on their bodies for the rest of their lives, not him. He needs to watch some tattoo reality shows and pay attention to how the tattoo artists treat their customers. He better listen to me on finishing up on mine. There is no NATE'S WAY, there is only TENNILLE'S WAY, because it's MY arm, not his! He has a lot of learning to do about how to run a tattoo business. He already messaged me on Facebook last night while I was work and said he doesn't want to use the ink I bought. GRRRRR!!!!!

Well, time to ride the exercise bike before I have to take a shower for work. I have fucked up for about 3 weeks, maybe a month now, and I've gained back 14 lbs! UGH! It's so easy to gain and so hard to lose! Why can't I get my head straightened back up and get back into the mentality I had going so strong in 2014?! UGH!



Jun. 2nd, 2017 12:23 am
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Hell yeah)
I got to work tonight and Dar said Justin quit today! YES YES YES!! He was doing nothing but causing trouble, telling everybody lies about everybody else just to make us all fight with each other. That was bullshit! He claimed to be my friend, but he was just a prick. He never would do any work while he was at work. Now we don't have to worry about him. YAY!



May. 31st, 2017 08:06 pm
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My friend Nikki told me I could contact Amazon through their live chat and that they'd refund the money taken from me by the scammer. It worked great, I get my money back in 3 to 5 days! Yeah, it may have only been $10, but it was MY money. I hope Amazon shuts this asshole down.

My tattoo ink and Don's fireproof work apron came today, so that's a good thing. I was bad and bought another fidget spinner today. The Onaway Shell station got in 3 boxes and I found a galaxy one, so I grabbed it. Oh well, lol. I will have a total of 3 after the one from Amazon comes, but that may not be until the middle of July. That's stupidly slow, but oh well. It's the same thing with the galaxy spinner I ordered for Cathy for her birthday and the size 6 plugs I ordered. I won't see any of that until July.

Well, time to get back to washing the millions of dishes.

tkdw_vlogs2017: (WTF)
So I'm still getting a daily thumbs-down on all my YouTube vlogs from Vlogga Palooza, that weird old woman who is pissed off at me for disagreeing with a comment she made back in January or February. She called me disrespectful and said she was moving on and unsubbed, but she did not move on. She has disliked every video ever since then. There may be a couple she missed, maybe she was busy those days, but otherwise, she's been vigilant. How do I know? I just do. It's pretty easy to figure out. There has been at least 1 thumbs-down on every video since that day. I don't get many thumbs-up or thumbs-down, so I know one of them every day is from her. She foolishly thinks that disliking every video will hurt my channel (that used to be the old way of thinking before it was disproven). Even if it was true, I can't be monetized, so it wouldn't matter anyway. It has since been found out that ANY interaction with a video, whether it's views, subs, comments, thumbs-up OR thumbs-down, helps the channel. So even though she doesn't know I'm not monetized and it doesn't really count, she would actually be HELPING my channel if I WAS monetized. So she's doing the exact opposite of what she thinks she's doing, lol. It's just so pathetic that a woman in her 50's has nothing else to do but stalk and try to damage a YouTube channel every day, just because I didn't agree with her stupid comment 5 or 6 freakin' months ago. Oh well, whatever the hell makes her happy.

Today the tattoo ink and the fireproof welder's apron for Don to use at work so he stops starting his shirts on fire are supposed to come by UPS, so that will be cool. However, here it is Wednesday and I made the complaint Saturday and I have not heard from that Tammy woman who sent the package of work shirts for Don to an address in New York even though my address was clearly on the order. I know I never will. So that means she doesn't care about customer satisfaction, she only cares about pocketing the money and running. It's a good thing it was only $10.05 all total, but still, that's like taking a 10 dollar bill and flushing it down the toilet for no reason. I'd request a refund, but Amazon doesn't have this particular situation listed as a choice on their reason list, and I'm sure she'd fight it, and even if Amazon told her she has to give me my money back, I bet she wouldn't, because she's just that crooked. Oh well. I will just always watch out for that name and make sure I never order anything from her again.

Oh wow! I just went and checked her feedback again and she has sent ALL the packages to that same address in Pleasant Valley, NY! People are PISSED! She is 100% a scammer! Here, avoid this person at ALL COSTS! Wow, just WOW!!!

So anyway, today is soup kitchen day if Don gets out of work in time for it. I'm also doing laundry and I have to do the dishes. I go back to work tomorrow. I have to take a break from giving money to Gary Price for the balloon payment and pay my back taxes. I got a letter in the mail yesterday saying they are now adding a monthly penalty fee to it, so it's just going up and up and up. *sigh* I looked into making payments on it and they charge an extra $150 just to set up a monthly payment plan! WTF?! So I'd have that $272.00 paid off and I'd STILL have to keep going to make $150.00 worth of extra payments. No thanks. I'll just have to give them what I would have given Gary Price. I have to pay off Frontier on Friday and then I can start putting money away for taxes. I've already paid car insurance and paid the bill on our cell phones. The rest of the bills I had are gone because I had everything shut off.

I'm just waiting for Don to come home and waiting for the UPS truck and the normal mailman (if we even get any normal mail). It's cold and cloudy today. Blech.


No Trust

May. 30th, 2017 09:23 pm
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Justin acted like a friend for almost a year now, but he is not. He's a little fucker who likes to fuck with your head and play with your emotions. He can't be trusted. Stacy wrote that note that one day about dirty bathrooms, so I cleaned them extra well the next night, and Justin told me she said it was still a filthy mess the next day. I believed him and got pissed off at Stacy and freaked the fuck out. Now I know he lied. I told him not to tell me anything anybody said about me because it makes me really upset, but that was a mistake because he just used my weakness as more ammo. He decided to pull the last bunch of bullshit, telling me Dar and Erin say I suck at my job, and again I believed it and freaked out. Rich told me none of it ever happened and to not listen to Justin. So Justin is no longer my friend. Fuck him. I blocked him on Facebook and blocked his phone number on my phone and I hope we never work together again and I hope he quits really soon like he keeps saying he's going to. What a fucking asshole!

So today Don worked as always. I hung around on the computer and finally took a shower. He came home shortly before I got in the shower. Then I got my lightbox out of the shed and used it to redesign the coloring of the dragon tattoo so it won't be so hard for Nate to finish. He keeps thinking he needs to try to imitate watercolor. No! He can't do that. He's nowhere near good enough and he will just keep fucking it up if he follows that route. So I recolored it with all solid colors and solid shadows, no blending, since he said he doesn't know how to shade. He should be able to follow it, I HOPE. I didn't color the tip of the tail because he's done plenty enough on that area, it's done. It's the rest he needs to finish. Those 20 bottles of tattoo ink I ordered for $15 off Amazon will be here Thursday, so I hope he can finish it on either Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday of next week when I'm off work. I hope he can make it come out good with this new plan. And I do not want him to anything more than what's on the paper, no adding anything. It's bad enough he already screwed up the tail adding that extra, stupid-looking part. Of course, the body needs to be very, very dark to hide the old tattoo.

IF ONLY I was rich, though! I could go to Ninja Monkey Tattoo in Cheboygan and have Ben Dratnol from The Darwin Project finish it. I was looking at his work on the shop's Facebook and it's amazing! Here's a cover-up he did. He was even able to use lighter colors and still pulled it off!

And then he did fuckin' HOGWARTS on somebody's back!

I'm never going to get anything like that out of Nate Raymond, but oh well. Too bad I can't just do it myself, but I don't know how to use a tattoo machine, and I'm right-handed.

Don managed to get a meat box from Tom's Market today. Those are really hard to get and it's been about a year since we last bought one. We just had dinner, Italian-breaded pork chops, mashed potatoes, corn and a little leftover fried cabbage.

And here's a nice pic of Don and Dan:



May. 29th, 2017 11:36 pm
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So it turns out everything Justin said was a complete lie. I talked to Rich. None of it ever happened. What the hell is wrong with that asshole? He claims to be a friend, but tells me a bunch of shit. He needs to go the hell away.
tkdw_vlogs2017: (What the hell)
So I was informed over the phone by Justin last night that he said we are not allowed to work together anymore because when we do work together I do absolutely NOTHING, that I don't clean the coffee bar, I don't take out the garbages, clean the bathrooms, or do ANY of the closing cleaning jobs. He said Erin and Dar said this to him and that they doing this so Stacy doesn't get fired because she doesn't have time in the morning to do her work AND my work. WHAT........THE...................FUCK?????!!!!!! I do everything I have to do! When Justin is there I know he won't do anything, so I put him on register and I do it ALL! I just can't believe this! They are listening to Stacy, who comes in only 2 days a week to open, and is alone there for 3 hours before anybody else shows up. She is telling them she has to do all the closing cleaning jobs because I don't do ANYTHING and they're believing her! So, I guess if it's Stacy they want, it's Stacy they can have. I left Rich a short note about it and then I left Dar this note:

I suppose she's going to pull a Brenda and say it's mean, but that wasn't the intention. I just never see Dar and have no way to ask her about anything other than in a note. This morning before I woke up either Rich or Dar called and left a voicemail that's almost 2 minutes long. Nope, I don't want to listen to that, I'm scared of what it says. So I will wait for Don to get home from work and have him listen to it first and let me know if it's a chew-out.

So if I have to get a new job I guess I'll have to. I let McDonald's walk all over me for 6 years. Should I let these people do it, too? I thought this was a good job with good people. Obviously I was wrong. Don keeps saying I'm going to get this at every job I work. Well, no, I have never had a job where they say I never did things I DID do. There was always other stupidity, but not this particular bunch of bullshit. At McD's all the lower managers wanted to work with me because I did what needed to be done. Now I'm getting told I do nothing when I DID do it, so what the fuck? What's the point? What do they want me to do, spend the night there cleaning all night so when Stacy walks in at 4:45 a.m. she sees me still cleaning? Should I take photos of all the clean things every night before I leave so I have proof? It all just sucks. I was ready to just completely quit last night, but now I guess I better stay. *sigh* I tried to fill out the online application for Family Dollar in Onaway, but just like last time I tried, when you get to the end, the submit button is missing. Great.

So my depression has been back for awhile now, getting worse every day. I feel like everything is just horrible, and now this thing with work is just making it worse. If I could lose all the extra weight I'd be okay again, but I don't even feel like moving.

It's Memorial Day, but it doesn't matter because Don has to work. Dan is being an asshole lately, making Don do ALL of the work. I know today Dan is probably doing shit with his family for the holiday and not helping Don at all. Don says he's always alone in that garage doing all the work. Dan does a little welding SOMETIMES, and the rest of the work is all on Don. SO I think Don deserves ALL the money that's made from these spades, not just a little bit of it, but oh well, it's none of my business. Don said Dan has had many businesses fail over the years and that if it wasn't for Don doing everything, this trenching spade business would have failed a long time ago, too.

I guess that's all. I feel so down I just want to go back to sleep.



May. 27th, 2017 12:49 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (What the hell)
I got fucked over on Amazon for the first time. I ordered a pack of 10 T-shirts for Don to use at work. I checked the tracking number and it said it was delivered yesterday. WTF? No it wasn't. So I looked and even though MY address is clearly listed on the order, she sent it to some place in Pleasant Valley, NY! Great! Now I'm out money and Don doesn't have the work shirts! I left the woman bad feedback and messaged her with a screencap showing the proof and asking just what she plans to do about this? I suppose I won't hear back. At least it wasn't hundreds of dollars lost, but still, I don't have money to throw around and Don has no work shirts and he's wrecking the good shirts I paid lots of money for since we got together. Ugh! And now I see the ONLY feedback she has is the ONE I left her. Oh great! I left my guard down and forget to check the sellers' feedbacks every single time. I know for sure I won't hear from her now. Well, that's $10.05 down the toilet. Now I have to try to find another way to get Don work shirts, because he can't work standing in those hot sparks all day every day with no shirt on at all.

I'm also never posting on Facebook again because people are too fucking snotty. All I will do is post our vlog every day, no real posts. That's what Ma has done for years, so I will, too. She reads Facebook to see what people are saying, but never posts anything herself. I posted yesterday that I was having trouble with Eevee. She cannot be trained AT ALL. So Jason Straube, a guy who used to be on YouTube, posted that he'd make me a YouTube video with some steps on how to help train her. Then before I could read either of them he made another reply acting really snotty biting my head off. So I replied and said yes, a video from him would help. So he snapped back, "Look training videos up on YouTube!" Well, fuck you too, then! I'm just so sick of all the bullshit. No surprise that Jason and Jessica Hatch are friends. She is the snottiest fucking bitch on YouTube. I stopped talking to her in Alpena back before she even got on YouTube. She was always snotting off to me, talking down to me. So I've had her filtered out of all my facebook posts for quite awhile now, her and Alicia Wallace both. Alicia I went to school with in Onaway and oh my god did she ever grow up to be a bitch, just like Jessica! I do not welcome snotty asshole comments on my Facebook wall from people talking to me like I'm a 5-year-old being bad. So not posting on Facebook AT ALL will stop their comments, ALL of them. I'd fucking delete Facebook completely, but then I'd lose our YouTube fanpage, too, and it's the only way left to be in contact with most of my friends, since I don't have any real life friends except Christine. I need to make sure I unlink Instagram from Facebook, too. Nobody on Facebook gets anything.

Don bought me another fidget spinner from Woodwinds like I asked him to. He's not home from work yet, but I see the money's been taken off my card. This time nobody gets to touch it but me. I mean, Don can, because he's not stupid and careless, but nobody else can.

Yes, I'm crabby. I have been for 3 days now. It doesn't help that summer has officially kicked in at work and it's SO FUCKING BUSY! Ugh!



May. 27th, 2017 01:16 am
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Concerned)
Justin broke my fidget spinner! I only had it for 2 days! I took it to work so I could spin it while waiting for wandering, slow motion customers to come to the counter to be waited on. It really did relieve stress. Well, I'd put it down and walk away to do something and Justin would pick it up and start playing with it. He kept dropping it on the hard floor, and damn sure enough, he broke it! I brought it home and tried to superglue it, but the glue went into the bearings and froze them up and now that's that. It's in the garbage now. I gave my card to Don so he can stop at Woodwinds and buy me another one tomorrow because I really want one, but nobody can touch it. Dammit! It's not like they only cost a buck or two!

I'm also not posting on Facebook ever again except for sharing the links to my YouTube vlogs. I'm sick of snotty comments. Enough is enough of that shit! I'll read and that's it. That's what Ma does. She's had Facebook for years and has never made any posts on it. She just shares recipes once in a while. Don also never makes any actual posts. He just shares funny memes. So that's how it will be with me. I'm sick of snotty comments. If people want to know what's going on with me they can either find this journal or watch my vlogs.

Well, time for bed.


I Guess...

May. 26th, 2017 01:31 pm
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Well, we decided to let Nate Raymond finish the tattoo, but he needs me to basically take him by the hand and walk him through it. I can't tattoo, but I can draw and shade, so I can guide him along. Like I said before, he needs to calm down and take his time. He also needs to shut up and listen. He just did this tattoo on some guy:

There was absolutely no reason he couldn't have calmed down, taken his time, and filled that tattoo in completely like it was supposed to be. He took a lot on his plate when he stepped up to Don that one day and offered to do this tattoo on me. I'm an artist, I KNOW things, I SEE things. These other people know nothing about art and don't see the mistakes.

BUT Don already paid Nate and I don't think Donny Root knows how to do color, so we will let Nate finish it, but with heavy guidance and hopefully NO vodka. I know I can't expect tattoo shop quality without paying like $1000.00, so I need to shut up and take what I can get.

I ordered a set of 20 bottles of tattoo ink today off Amazon for only $15.00. It includes a ton more shades of colors than Nate has, so hopefully he can work with them and get the body dark enough to color the old one and get some shading in there, which I will have to teach him how to shade. The ink is mine, though, nobody can have it. It will be there for the future. It's supposed to come Thursday, so maybe Monday we can get Nate back over here. The tattoo is still slightly sore, but it should be okay by then. And I have to make sure he knows NO scales (they look like crap, he needs to cover over what he did), no stars, no clouds, and no goofy-looking flying lines. And by flying lines I mean this silly shit:

I used to do that crap when I was a kid. It's fine for comic strips, but this is not a comic strip. So no.
He also wants to fully sleeve my right arm, which IS something I've wanted done for the last few years, BUT no, not yet. If he gets a good few years of practice in and gets good, fine, go for it, but not yet. I do see potential in his work, but he needs to keep practicing and he needs to stop spazzing.

So on Wednesday we were in town after Don had to do an emergency fix on the Stratus because the low pressure gas line he used ruptured and he needed to put high pressure line on, and we saw Christine and her boyfriend Tommy, so we stopped to talk to them. While we were talking an old classmate tagged me on Facebook letting me know Woodwinds Restaurant is selling fidget spinners in their little gift section, so we went right over and I got one. Good grief, are those things hard to find! They're sold out all over. People just don't know Woodwinds has them. I got a red and black one and it's been fun to play with. The day before I did order a silver one off Amazon for just a couple bucks, but it says it might not be here until the middle of July. So I'll have 2, no big deal. I like playing with it and it does relieve stress. I think this is the only time I've jumped onto a big fad. I was never allowed when I was a kid. Dad also said it was all a, "big rip off," like glitter bracelets, slap bracelets, charm necklaces, Trapper Keepers, etc. This is the only time I've gone after something that was a fad, but that's because it looked interesting and it IS fun to play with.

So I found out when I got to work last night that there are no more work meetings until August. Good! Those are such a waste of gas and time! We go there and listen to Rich say the EXACT same thing for an hour (and the last 3 meetings have only been a 1/2 hour) and leave. Yeah, we get paid, but I don't think Blarney Castle wants to pay everybody for an extra hour a month so they can listen to the exact same thing they've heard again and again and again. I hope this means they will phase them out completely. I could see if I lived in Indian River, but I don't, and neither does pretty much anybody else. Erin lives in Wolverine, Rich lives in Black Lake, Christine and I live in Tower, Brad lives in Cheboygan, DeLynn was coming all the way from Alpena. It's all a waste of time and gas. We're also finally supposed to have the new touch screen register system by September. I hope so. I'm used to touch screen, after using them at both McDonald's and Walmart. It'll be nice to be rid of that shrill screaming these old registers do when a pump needs to be approved and when somebody finishes pumping. The new system sounds more like a bell, a more gentle one than the shrill screaming that even the customers cringe at and complain about.

So the chain broke and Eevee is on the run again. She won't come back for anything. Fine, fuck it.



May. 24th, 2017 03:11 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Yay)
Yesterday after Don got out of work we went up to see Becky and Troy and eat Becky's bean soup. It was good. Troy is doing well. They didn't have to crack his chest open to put stints in, they just went in through his arm. He and Becky both quit smoking and Becky is trying to sell their electric cigarette roller, box of tubes and partial bag of tobacco on Facebook, but she wants $100.00 and nobody is going to pay that. But it was good to see them and we're glad Troy is okay. He needs to be really careful now. Becky says she wishes Don would quit smoking, too. Yeah, good luck with that one.

Don just came home from work pissed off because the neopreum hose (or however that's spelled, neoprene?) that he used to fix the gas line in the Stratus ruptured and he had to hurry up and buy more and it was expensive and he's out there fixing it now. He used the low pressure hose when he did the repair and should have used the high pressure. We were going to go to the soup kitchen, but we can't now because he has to do that. Oh well, next week.

Not much else is going on. It's STILL cold outside. It will be for a long time. I go back to work tomorrow and I don't know who, if anybody, I'm working with. It's not Justin because now that Kirsten quit to move to Posen, Justin has to always close the little store. So it will be either Brad or nobody.

tkdw_vlogs2017: (Concerned)
The tattoo thing is really getting me down today. I had shit on my arm for 16 years and I wanted it fixed, but it just got replaced with more shit. :( The more I look at it, the more deeply disappointed I am. Don was trying to help me, and he paid this asshole a total of $70.00 bucks, and the guy didn't take it seriously at all. It sucks! Like I said in the last entry, we can't let him touch me with the needles anymore, or he will just continue to destroy my arm! I don't know about Donny Root, either. He's an amateur, too, and I can't find any of his work on his Facebook. Ugh! I don't think he's as bad as Nate, but he's not as good as somebody in a real tattoo shop. I think I need about $1,000.00 to be able to take the dragon picture, walk into a good tattoo shop with what I have and say, "Please fix this!" I'll never have that kind of money! Just because some of Don's friends own tattoo machines and some ink, does not mean they know how to do tattoos. :( :( :(

Nate couldn't even follow his own damn stencil! He did fine creating the stencil and putting it on me, but then the shit hit the fan! Here's what the head is supposed to look like, and it did on the stencil, but then here's what he did with the machine. UUUUUGH!!!!!

The design change on the head would have been okay IF he would have bothered to do a good job on it!

And here's the rest of his careless mistakes:

I have a few little spots in my skin that can't be tattooed over, but did he have to CIRCLE it? Why didn't he point an arrow pointing to it, too, and write, "Hey! Look at this thing!"? Grrrrrrrrr!!!!

"Scales" I didn't even want him to put on there:

And this doesn't even fucking belong there!

Not to mention how he thought it was cool to scribble color on the wings instead of filling them in. *sigh*
AND how this doesn't even BEGIN to cover the old garbage tattoo at all! I was hoping in session 2 that I could make him use dark blue, dark purple and black on the body to cover the old one, but now I never even want him to touch it again. I'm tired of having embarrassing tattoos! So we'll see about Donny Root, but he can't do garbage on me! No more garbage, please!

So in other news, we're supposed to go see Becky and Troy tonight and eat bean soup with them. We're glad Troy lived and we hope he makes it. Heart attacks are scary for sure.

Don's at work as always. It's cold outside, as always, but luckily not raining. I waited all damn day for my laptop to do endless updates, so I haven't started the vlog uploading yet. Oh well. I need something for lunch, but there is nothing quick and easy and I feel like an ugly, nasty, fat pig today anyway.

My flowers in the tire are starting to grow. They're just little sprouts right now. The hummingbirds are back. I want to take some photos of them with the good camera, but I'm waiting for one to show up.

I guess that's all for now. I hope I can cheer up, but I don't know. I was so excited about and looking forward to finally having a good tattoo on my arm and it failed. :(

tkdw_vlogs2017: (What the hell)
Don and I had a long talk and we are not going to let Nate Raymond continue with my dragon tattoo. He just sucks too bad! Over the past week I have seen nothing but mistakes on it. He screwed the line work all up, he tried to go over some of the lines a second time, but couldn't follow the same line, so it's a sloppy mess. His coloring is a sloppy mess, too. He couldn't even follow the stencil he made and make the line work the same as the stencil. There are places where he way overshot with the lines and screwed things all up. He mangled the feet. He wrecked the ridges on the back. He added junk that shouldn't be there. The head is messed up. He didn't fill in the colors completely on the wings and said it looked cool. It looks like a kindergartner scribbled on me. If I let him do anything more he will just continue to destroy what could have been a really nice tattoo. Right now I'm getting comments like, "Well, THAT looks like shit." Yeah, I had shit on my arm for 16 years. I don't need it replaced with more shit. Plus, Nate insisted on drinking 2 bottles of vodka while he was doing the tattoo and that's why it sucks so much. And he can't shut up and let anybody else talk and he drove me nuts! So Don is going to see if Donny Root will finish it. It's too bad Don already paid this asshole $70.00, though. He can't be trusted to do a good job. I'm very disappointed. I wrestled all week with the guilt of not liking the tattoo because Don was trying to help me, so I didn't want to say anything. I also didn't want Nate to think I'm an asshole, but he's just all kinds of fucked up, so whatever. Hopefully Donny Root can fix it. If not, I'm doomed to have shit on my arm forever.



May. 22nd, 2017 12:04 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Concerned)
The other night Don's sister Becky posted on Facebook, "Could be better I pray for my family." It said she was at the Petoskey hospital. Well, I didn't think a lot of it because I thought it was their drug addict sister Julie and her bleeding stomach again. Turns out Don thought the same thing. Then last night she posted, "I'm a happy wife my husband made it." Well, then I was like WTF?! So I commented and told her to call Don and let him know what happened, so she did. Turns out Troy had 2 heart attacks and they had to open him up and put stints in. Half his heart was blocked off. Now, why she didn't call Don (or anybody) right away, I don't know. Luckily Troy lived and hopefully he'll be okay now. Troy is skinny as a rail, so it definitely wasn't a weight-related thing. But Becky has bad luck. I'm wondering if it's a curse. Two of her previous husbands have died. Hopefully Troy won't be the third.

So anyway, the whole Stacy thing didn't matter, I guess. The other night Brad went home sick, so Rich stayed late to help out. He never said a word about Stacy or any of that crap. I'm still ignoring Stacy's existence, though. She's 2-faced, nice to your face and on your Facebook, but talking shit about you behind your back. Nope, I'm over that kind of shit in my life. Luckily the only time I ever see her is the monthly meeting and I won't have to even look at her then. Eventually she'll get the point.

Don is at work and I'm doing nothing. It's cold outside, so blah. I had breakfast and I'm drinking coffee and listening to music on Spotify. Later I will start playing Final Fantasy 13 on the PS3. My friend Nikki surprised me by getting me 3 of the FF games off my Amazon wishlist. :)

Cathy changed her YouTube channel from scary stories to vlogging, if you want to check it out. I think she's funny, all the faces she makes and stuff.

The Stratus is doing fine, but the Onaway Carquest sold him a bad brake caliper. It rubs when you make a left turn, so he has the receipt and he has to do an exchange.

Ma called the other day and said Tony called her and wanted her to come to Jasmine's graduation party. Of course, she doesn't want to, and neither does anybody else. Nobody has ever met Jasmine, and all we know about her is she's on heroin and fucked Tony's life all up. Nobody wants anything to do with her. Cathy doesn't want to go, either. Now I'm thinking that might be why he tried to call me on Mother's Day, but I was at work and I'm not answering my phone when I'm working. He didn't text or leave a voicemail. I'm still afraid to try to call him in case he starts more shit.

The tattoo is healing well. It didn't scab over, but my tattoos usually never do. Probably next Monday we'll see if we can get Nate over here to finish it up. There's a lot I want him to do, and some things he wanted to do that I DON'T want him to do. He needs to calm down, stop spazzing, and be quiet long enough for me to tell him, and then he needs to stay calm and be careful when he's doing the tattoo so he doesn't make any more mistakes. There are some places where he went back over the lines, but they don't match up, and he messed up the back feet, and he went too far with one line. He needs to take a deep breath, calm down, take his time and be careful. And DON'T drink vodka! I'm not trying to be a picky asshole, but I had pure garbage on my arm for 16 years and I don't want any more garbage.

Here's that vlog where we find the underground river. That was pretty cool.



May. 19th, 2017 01:43 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Default)
So the tattoo is peeling and it's itchy now. I have to remember to not scratch it. It's not really scabbing over, which scabbing doesn't usually happen with me with tattoos. Once it's healed Nate has to come back and finish it. I already know what I want done. For one, the body must be made much, much darker to cover Marty's name. You can still see it plain as day right now. He has lines to go back over and darken. I don't want him doing anything else to the tip of the tail, that's done. It really hurts there and I bruised all around it, so that part is good enough, it looks fine. He wants to add stars, which is fine, but only if he can promise he can make them straight and not all crooked. I don't want him putting clouds or flying lines like he was talking about. He needs to change the color of the wing sections next to the body from orange to dark blue because the orange is not covering the letters. No biggie, I wouldn't think. And then he has coloring to finish. He doesn't know how to shade, with isn't cool, but oh well. Hopefully it'll still come out okay. He said I could teach him, but no, not without knowing how to tattoo myself. Sure, I could show him on paper with a colored pencil, but will he really learn from that? I doubt it. I was surprised to hear he's only been tattooing for 3 or 4 months, though. He's very good for being so inexperienced. If he keeps practicing he'll be fine. He keeps saying he wants to teach me to tattoo because I'm artistic. Eh, no thanks. I'd rather stick to paper. He keeps calling me T.J. He asked if he could because he didn't even want to try to tackle saying my real name. Oh well, whatever you want, lol. It'll be good when the tattoo is completely done because damn, that area hurts SO MUCH! He wants to sleeve my whole arm, which is fine. I've wanted that done for a couple years now, BUT he needs to get really good first. I want him to get a lot more practice in first. I see potential, but he needs to develop it.

Work went fine yesterday because there were no managers. There also should not be any tonight or tomorrow night, but I'll probably see Rich for a short time Sunday. I do not want to hear about Stacy from him. She left me an asshole note last Saturday saying all the garbage cans were filled up with human shit (???) and that I made her have a, "shitty day." I threw it away and ignored it and made sure the bathrooms were clean before I left that night. Then I find out she did it again on Sunday, told Justin over and over and over for hours how horrible the bathrooms were AGAIN and that I suck at my job and bullshit like that. Meanwhile, she posted on my Facebook that I was beautiful, for Mother's Day, at the exact same time she was talking shit about me to Justin. O_o 2-faced much? So I cleaned the bathrooms ridiculously well and left Stacy a note telling her so and that I hoped it was good enough. Well, of course, she cried to Rich and Dar about it and made me look like a real asshole, and now Rich and Dar are pissed at me. She also told them about stuff that was on my Facebook. so I blocked her ass. I had enough of that kind of shit at McDonald's. I also blocked almost everybody else I work with. I'm not letting that bullshit start again. Yes, my Facebook is, "against policy," BUT it's against MY POLICY for you to intrude in my private life. That would be like if they walked into my house and said, "You can't have this and you can have that and you can't do this and you can't do that!" No thanks! That's one of the main reasons my Facebook is locked up. Dar told Christine the customers see what's on my Facebook. No, they absolutely DO NOT. Everything is friends' only and I don't have any customers on my friends' list. Dar doesn't have Facebook (or the internet at all) and doesn't understand it. Neither does Rich. I found DeLynn on Facebook and instantly blocked her. I also blocked Erin because she is now a manager. No more fucking around.

Anyway, in about an hour I get in the shower and then I go to work. Don is at work at Dan's as always, but hopefully he makes it back on time for me to take the car. I haven't been going to Starbucks, even though I'd love to. We spent some money on things we needed and a little on things we wanted, and now that's it for the summer, back to 100% strict. I can't even get a 3 dollar and some cent iced coffee. I had to pay our phone bill today and the rest goes to Gary Price. Next payday it's car insurance and then everything else to Gary Price...well, I'll probably pay Frontier, too, and THEN the rest to Gary Price. I'll have to keep gas in the car, too. Otherwise, until the property is paid off, this is the way it is.

For the past week I have completely fucked up on the diet and exercise. I have done nothing right. I'm sure I gained back the 6 lbs. I lost. Well, it's nobody's fault but my own. Don bought me a new pair of jeans from Walmart for work and they are size 26. They're a little big, but they fit. They should be falling off me. I shouldn't even be able to DREAM of wearing something that big! And that's it, stores don't sell any sizes above 26, so if I keep getting fatter I will again be completely screwed! I look and feel like complete shit. I saw myself in the vlog from the other day when I was showing the camera the old steering wheel cover that won't fit in the car anymore and I wanted to puke. EW! When Don has the camera and there are full-body shots of me I can't stand to see it, but I have to edit the videos, so I can't just ignore it.

The flower seeds I planted are starting to sprout, which is good. Yesterday it rained, so now it's cold, though. Nothing new with Michigan. The customers were crying like little babies about it last night, though. A lot of them were regulars, which means they live here. How can they not know this always happens when it rains? Weird.

tkdw_vlogs2017: (Hell yeah)
I received the Daisy VoxBox from Influester awhile back. It was filled with free products for me to test and review. I have tried out all the products and I really like them.

The Nature's Bounty Probiotic gummies taste really good and I've been eating them every day to help with my health. They're something I'd keep using and they did provide a coupon to save money on another bottle.

The Live Clean coconut shampoo and conditioner works really well on my very difficult-to-brush-after-a-shower hair and smells really good. I can smell coconut all day after I take my shower!

The Skinny Pop Popcorn was good. It's nice that somebody is finally making healthy microwave popcorn that's not loaded with fat and calories!

Even though I'm no longer a pad person, the Always pads worked well for me. I recommend them to all pad users because they seem to work good.

The Yes To face mask was nice. I've never used a face mask before and it did make my skin feel really nice. It may make me want to use masks more often.

The Light & Fit yogurt was hard to find in my area (they sent a coupon to get one for free). I had to go to another town to find it, but I was finally able to locate it. I picked the banana flavor. It tasted really good and had a nice consistency and I'll get it more often.

Overall I was very pleased with my very first VoxBox ever and I hope to be chosen to receive more of them in the future. It's fun to test and review products. Thank you Influenster!


May. 16th, 2017 11:41 pm
tkdw_vlogs2017: (Default)
What I didn't write about earlier was the bullshit with Stacy at work. She's not a manager, she hasn't been there as long as me, she only works 2 days a week, BUT every day she works she tells everybody I suck at my job and I do nothing at night when I close. Thanks a lot. I'm getting sick of it and very stressed out about it. I finally said something Sunday, but that just pissed Rich and Dar off, so I will keep my mouth shut, but I will never speak to or acknowledge the existence of Stacy ever again. She ratted me out to Rich and Dar about what's on my Facebook, so I blocked her and blocked almost everybody else I work with, too. I left Christine on there because she's my friend, and I left Kirsten because she is quitting and moving away in 4 days, BUT if Rich and Dar keep "mysteriously" knowing about my Facebook posts after Kirsten is gone, I'll delete Justin because it will have to be him. I also told Justin to never tell me about the shit Stacy talks about me anymore. That's why I got so upset, because on Saturday and Sunday I came in to work and even though Stacy was long gone (she opens) Justin HAD to tell me all about what she spent all day both days saying about me. So I took it straight to heart and it ate away at me and stressed me all out and I ended up writing Stacy a note about it, which she apparently whined to Rich and Dar about and now they're pissed at me. All it said was that I cleaned both bathrooms from top to bottom with straight bleach, no water and that I hoped it was finally clean enough. That was her main bitch, that the bathrooms were, "trashed." Saturday she left a note saying all the garbage cans in both bathrooms were filled up with human feces. WHAT?! I cleaned the bathrooms and double-checked them before I left. I would have know that if it was true. I think she's nuts! She is an alcoholic. She comes to work at 4:45 a.m. still drunk and says all kinds of weird things in notes. It makes me wonder if she hallucinates. She is apparently sobered up by 8 when Rich and Dar show up, but it's really early when she leaves stupid notes saying stupid things. She's also unable to accurately count the cigarettes or the lotto tickets and her drawer is always way off. BUT, despite all of this, I am the one Rich and Dar are mad at. Whatever. I will just ignore Stacy forever. I'm 41, I don't need this childish shit. Oh yeah. and she is 2-faced. She went on my Facebook Sunday morning and commented that I'm beautiful...WHILE spending the whole morning complaining to Justin that I'm no good at my job. Go fuck yourself!

So when Don came home from work at Dan's he changed the oil in the Stratus himself. I was going to take us to the Cheboygan Wal-Mart and have it done, but he wanted to do it. After Becky, Troy and John left we still went to Cheboygan, though. We did what food shopping we could and Don bought a tank of freon to recharge the air conditioner in the Stratus. He also bought me a pair of black jeans for work, insisted on it. He knows I'm having trouble with my jeans either not fitting or ripping apart. That's the second time he's done something really nice because he wants to make sure I get the things I need! He's just so sweet!

We came home and had dinner and I watched the first episode of Anne with An E, the new Anne of Green Gables series on Netflix. I think they did a good job so far, but Don hated it. All of Anne's talking drove him nuts, lol. I read all the books and watched the old movies and the Road to Avonlea series. It's something I really like, but not Don's thing, I guess, lol.

One more day off. Tomorrow is laundry day. I need to do the dishes, but I don't know if I want to stick my arm in the hot, soapy water yet, lol. I took a shower today and the hot water didn't feel too great on the new tattoo.

Oh yeah, I bought Eevee, Tug and Sammy the biggest metal water bowl in the world at Wal-Mart because they were always drinking up their water within like 2 minutes, lol. I was also able to finally use that free coupon for the Light & Fit yogurt I need to review for the Influenster VoxBox. Either nobody had it or they wanted more than the 99 cents the coupon covered, but Wal-Mart had it for 97 cents, so good.


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